sumilai

time for a new blogentry

first of all: a great thanks for all the birthdaywishes and congrats!
now Creide left me today :/ unfrtunately I was too tired to be sad (train left too early), but I'm getting sad about it now. maybe I'll see her not until christmas, what would be a really big piece of shit, but studying is getting harder in the second year now. what leads us to the next news: I got a traineeship we have to do one in about 7 weeks and 2/3 of the students don't got a place yet, so I had a lot of pressure in my back. Furthermore I hate calling up people and ask and writing cv and waiting, waiting, waiting.... I hate it, because it feels like you would be valued for what you are (and only by a little paper or two) and if you don't get the place it is like failing ...I hate it -_-
but well, I got something very nice now (actually the only one I applied to) in a sheltered workshop, a place where people with a mental handicap can create art. They are very nice there and the place is full of super equipment and materials, I'm so glad :>
wish me luck, that I don't insult anyone!