sumayah

Hello everyone so at work there are some ppl that I dont know if they wanna be my friends or I dont get society rules lol so I say hi everytime I bump into them and they look at me like "that's it? say something else" but ahhh I hate small talk!! I never know what to say and I feel stupid making remarks about the weather or my day or w/e and I usually end up saying things that dont make sense does this happen to anyone else??
I've been having a couple of shitty days I wanna get me out of my body!! in order of shit:
-my father in law is really sick
-I have finals and a psychometric test that determine me getting accepted in the university
-I had a huge fight with my roomates (I was so mad I kicked their door and broke it lol!!) but it felt sooooooo good!!!! I wanna smack and kick thing more often
-My back still hurts
However, there is always hope and beauty and I love being alive and having shitty times like these because the sun always shines after the storm.
So my hubby and I were thinking we should get a girlfriend that could be fun but we're both too shy
sorry for the bad energy with the bad stuff is great to let things off your chest and kicking doors (something new I learned)
I LOVE YOU ALL
thank you all for your sweet comments and messages

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