sullenriot

I feel good, a rare event these days. I had a good night last night, I went to my mate Sues cowboy party, I kinda knew a couple of people there so I went on my own and it wasnt that scary, and I didnt kinda feel left out. ive had a couple of sessions with a councellor and she said that I should have went, to get out of the house and the loop of people I live with because I know everyone through these people and I always feel like Im tagging along, so it was really good to be able to talk to people that I've went out and met myself. Sounds a bit silly like, but Im meant to do things in the moment that make me feel happy and valued. I also booked myself a hair appointment. Anyway the party was good, but then one of my housemates showed up and wouldnt stop talking about herself and jumping in conversations and turning it round to her, then telling me my other housemate was pissed off because I never offered to buy her wine, I didnt even buy myself wine, Sue and I polished off the Vermouth, Tequila and cider...and had also had a good bitch because i didnt invite her, she said she wasnt going anyway lots of times over the week, I didnt want her to be there because she's an embarrassment.
Anyhow I tried not to let it dampen things too much. Went out to concrete, and got stuck with my housemate and walked home alone.
Today I went and got a mothers day present, I need to take it back as it was a photo album, but the photos were too big, so Im getting a frame and sticking a photo of me and my mum looking geniunly happy at my 21st birthday, its been a long time sine stuff like that so I want to get back to that and hopefully have more good moments with my mum. You just have to get through the shit before things get good again