sullenriot

Today I had a bit of an anxiety attack so I had to get out of the studio as fast as I could....everyone was in panic mode because its all got to be handed in by 4 on friday.
It was making my brain go into panic mode and a couldnt breathe. I just panicked, I dont have as much work...but i have a really good fucking excuse and the tutors know this...its their fault, if they had sent me the summer brief along with everyone else then I would have shown up with work and drawings and research, but they didnt, so I showed up on the first day with nothing to start on, where as everyone had drawings that they could start to do their design development, meaning I'm so far behind, they didnt even know there was a 2nd year entrant. Then I had so much other crap going on, I havent settled in well at all and I've been extremely home sick. One of my tutors knows this, but the head one that does the marking doesnt, i've never even met her...so I need to find her and explain.

I really dont want to fail the visual research part because I'm confident about all my other work, then I'll have to resit next year and everything else will suffer.

I really want to cry