sulia

I'm sorry SG, for not blogging for the past couple of days...........

It's been a little hectic, so we will start with Wednesday........

If I remember correctly I didn't tell you guys what was going on with my brother. He is about to be married May 29th to a girl who desperately needs to grow up and I'll tell you why. Last weekend my brother called my mom concerning his fiancee and how she was treating him, she was belittling and calling him names..... excuse me?! WTF is that all about!?!??!! She's 25 years old, has a 2 year old little girl and is acting like a 2 year old herself, I mean come on now....... With that being said, I was supposed to help out my brother on Wednesday, he needed to take his del sol back into the shop, so me being the reliable sister that I am I agreed to help him. I received a text that morning stating that Megan called off work and that she would be joining him and asked if I still wanted to go. I told him no that I am still pissed at her for the shit she pulled and left it at that. May I remind you this was the second time she pulled this shit with coming between my brother and I. When my brother showed up he came to my room and of course she followed, he asked if I was ok as he handed me my ID, apparently I had left it on the ground somewhere outside, I told him no and that I would talk to him later. 20 mins went by and there was a knock on my door, when I opened it there she stood as happy as could be and asked me why I didn't want to go, I told her "Because I'm pissed at you". I told my friend that was on the phone that I would call him back and asked her to please come in my room and I shut the door. I told her that I knew what happened over the weekend between her and my brother and that I wasn't happy with it or with her. I even explained to her that the family is not happy with her right now, she tried to deny everything and tried to get aggressive with me, I stood up out of my chair and told her "You wanna drop bombs we'll do it right now." She stormed out of my room and slammed the door which made me even more upset. I called up my mom and told her what happened, she explained that she would be having words with Megan as well about everything.

Ok enough about that........

Later on that evening Rob came and picked me up and we went back to his place, but before that we went to the store to buy the necessary items to make grilled cheese and tomato soup!! I had also brought Super Troopers since he had never seen it. When we got to his place we put everything away and talked for a little bit, before I knew it, it was time for me to take my medication so we headed on back to the kitchen to make dinner. He helped me out with preparation and made sure I was all set, he is the sweetest guy in the world After that we went back into the living room to eat and watch Super Troopers. Like always we didn't exactly watch the entire movie but enough to where he understood the plot, instead we either talked or had a pretty intense make out session As the night went on he was telling me how afraid he is to fall in love with me as he doesn't want to get hurt, no one ever does, I'm also afraid .

SG, he has a smile that lights up my whole world when it's gone dark........ Every time I think about him or a see a photo of him my face lights up with the biggest smile........

On to last night!

I don't normally see Rob on Thursdays, well not since we've started seeing each other, so last night was the first time I saw him on a Thursday. His son had a reading over at Barnes and Noble and I wasn't sure if or when he would be by until he called and took me by surprise, so I had to hurry up and get ready We went to Islands for dinner like we did on our first date and we sat and talked for what I would say a good hour maybe a little longer, like we always do. After dinner we went back to his place and talked some more, of course had another intense make out session He didn't want to take me home last night and to be quite honest I didn't want to leave either. He's been wanting me to stay the night with him but I'm not ready to take that next step with him yet, I want to take it slow. I told him once I get my truck registered then I would consider it but not until then and he completely understands. When we did leave to come back to my house it was so hard to part ways with him, especially knowing I wasn't going to see him for 3 days. This Saturday I am spending the evening with Catey and Saturday is mine and Robs night but he understood, he is an amazing guy. I made him stall for a little bit longer and invited him in to meet spot, my pet rat, I had never seen spot so calm with someone before it was quite a site. After he held spot for a moment he took a look around my room and if I would've remembered I would have given him one of my calendars, I completely forgot. Soon there after we went back outside, this time I walked him to his truck so we wouldn't stall anymore, he had a meeting to conduct this morning. We said our good byes, he waited til I got to my front door to get in his truck and waved at me.

Every night seems to be getting better and better, however, I did notice that I am starting to shut down a little. I think I am getting scared, sabotaging even, I'm not sure. It's like I am picking at little things, I tend to do that often with people, I find things I don't like just sabotage whether it be the way they talk, walk, laugh, eat, anything really and I think I am doing that with Rob. I know it's normal to do the things I just mentioned but for some reason my brain likes to make me think other wise.

Any suggestions SG? Give a hopeful a little advice?