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So yesterday was pretty fucking awesome.......

My friend Catey came over yesterday for the first time since things started really taking off with Rob. She was in shock at how giddy and happy I was as she has never me in this state before, especially since she knew my ex. I needed to run some errands and asked if would like to go with me, of course her being my best friend she said of course. As I was getting ready I received a text from Rob and face just lit up, he asked "Had a frap today"? I said "No, I am trying to tone up for a shoot coming up". The next message totally blew me away and took me by surprise "Guess you don't want me to drop one off then." I completely freaked out, the look on Catey's face was priceless at this point. I text him back with "OMG! Yes I do"! He even offered to get me something else since I am trying to lose a little bit weight and also offered my sister something, I couldn't believe it! No other guy has offered my little sister something. 10 minutes later there is a knock on my front door and I look like a mess! I had just gotten out of the shower, my hair was still damp and all over the place, I was freaking out. I opened the door and omg..... He had his hair down he smiled, gave me a hug and a kiss. SG, I couldn't even look at him, I was smiling, bushing ... I couldn't contain myself. He gave me my drink and one last hug and kiss and said "I'll see you tonight." and on his way he went. I closed the front door, turned around and couldn't move, so the door was helping me stand for the next 2 mins or so. Catey was like "Are you standing against the door." I replied with "No.... Maybe......Yes." She laughed and called me a dork. We proceeded to leave and run the necessary errands before my date with Rob last night.

I couldn't believe my reaction yesterday, it was out of this world...... but the date last night is another story that begins right now.........

He picked me up around 6:45 or so and we went to California Pizza Kitchen, as we were walking up to the restaurant he put his arm around me, it was nice We went in and sat down and just started talking like we always do but this time we ordered and then continued to talk instead of the other way around, well, he ordered for the both of us which was fine by me One thing that he brought up was the fact that he is not talking to anyone else nor is he interested in anyone else, that was a nice surprise. He also told me he doesn't want me to feel rushed in anyway and wants me to be able to feel free to just live my life being single until I am ready, he just wanted to tell me how he felt. I thought that was very considerate of him since most people now a days don't have considerate bone in their body. After the food came I decided to bring up the Target story It turns out he was actually stalling!!! He wanted us to bump into each other, I felt so bad after he told me that. He said he loved the story and it made him feel good that I feel the way that I do. After dinner we went back to his place, on the way there he was telling me how our friends were trying to pry out of him who he was talking to this last Saturday night, Rob told them not to worry about and that they will know in due time. It's going to be kind of funny when they see it's me because I am one of their special Miscreant's but I know it will all fall into place the way it's supposed to when we got to his place, we turned on Top Gear and continued to talk..... Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that at the restaurant we talked about shaving his beard! So as we were continuing to talk went went to his restroom and he asked, "How much should I shave"? I told him "Leave the Go-t and side burns." he asked "What about the mustache". I told him "Leave it and we'll see when everything is shaved". So he shaved and said he has never shaved for anyone and has never had anyone watch him shave, that made me happy I'm such a dork, I know. When he finished shaving he asked about the mustache and I told him to take it off, so he did. Btw, this man is sexy no matter what he does, I swear. After he was done, he got my seal of approval, he looked very nice.

Ok this next part, is a little hard for me to talk about and I will explain while I am blogging.......

So when we sat back down we talked some more about a couple of things, like about animals and how I lost my two Siberian Huskies...... of course I ended up crying but Rob was so sweet and hugged me and told me that it'll be ok. After a long while of exchanging stories, we started kissing and well one thing lead to another and we ended up in his bedroom. We did the deed and afterward I had this feeling and it wasn't a good feeling. It was that feeling of "I feel like I am being used" because that's happened so many times before that I went completely numb and kind of shied away. Rob knew there was something wrong. We laid down on his couch and after a little bit we started talking about what just happened and I explained my feelings and what was going through my head. He sat me up and explained to me that if I didn't want to commence in sexual activity we didn't have to and continued to apologize. He said that he was sorry for letting the chemicals get the best of him and that he didn't want that to ruin anything between us. I could not believe what I was hearing from this man's lips, I was in shock. He said he wants to give us a shot, if there is a chance when I am ready and that he has never felt this way about anyone before not even his ex wife. Since he was telling me about all this, I told him about how I was going to pursue something with someone else before I had even talked to Rob and that it wasn't working out for multiple reason, the first is because this mystery man is married and second he some what fell off the face of the earth for about a week and it totally destroyed me emotionally. This mystery man has also been helping me with my financial situation at the moment and I told Rob this and he told me if I need help he will help me and I can pay him back when I am more financial capable. I told Rob no that I am not taking his money, I basically made my bed so now I have to sleep in it. Rob wants to help me in the worst way and I can't bring myself to do so but he put the offer on the table and it still stands.

He took me home around 1, I told him I hope I see him again and he said you will. When we got to my house he walked me to my door as he always does and reassured me again that I will see him again as he kissed me . As I was walking into my house I turned back and he waved at me as he got into his truck.

Last night was totally unexpected in every way, this man is very special to me and I will be breaking ties with the mystery man.