Hello all.....
I am not sure how to start this blog..... I am frustrated with everything, my feelings are in complete shambles and I am extremely tired...... I have been putting in 15 hour days at work, I am working for more than one person now because I need the money..... I am unsure with how I feel about everything, I am not sure if it is the pill or if I am just in shutdown mode from the world......
My sister's boyfriend has been staying with us for the past couple of years, I think 4 but I am not for certain..... Him and I were really good friends before he moved in with us and now we fight like cats and dogs and it bugs me to no end that it has ended up that way.... I think he has over stayed his welcome and that's probably why I can't stand him anymore...... He just found out a couple of months ago that his dad has cancer and just found out a couple of days ago that after surgery he may only have a 15% chance of living afterward..... I have been a complete and utter bitch to him because he gets on my nerves..... As I walked down the hall way tonight I stood there and took a glance in my sisters room and realized how bad I feel for being so mean but I have noticed that whenever him and I make a mends it only lasts for a short time before I get aggravated again with him being here...... I will admit that I miss our friendship, he has been there for me through a lot of hard times and has made my sister happy for the past 5 years, I just wish I knew why we fought so much, it makes no sense to me
...... After I realized how I was acting towards him, I started to cry, here is a guy that is losing his dad to cancer and I am being heartless.......
I am still a little teary eyed writing this, I had to get it off my chest...... He is being asshole but mostly towards me, I guess he has a good reason for it........
I am not sure how to start this blog..... I am frustrated with everything, my feelings are in complete shambles and I am extremely tired...... I have been putting in 15 hour days at work, I am working for more than one person now because I need the money..... I am unsure with how I feel about everything, I am not sure if it is the pill or if I am just in shutdown mode from the world......
My sister's boyfriend has been staying with us for the past couple of years, I think 4 but I am not for certain..... Him and I were really good friends before he moved in with us and now we fight like cats and dogs and it bugs me to no end that it has ended up that way.... I think he has over stayed his welcome and that's probably why I can't stand him anymore...... He just found out a couple of months ago that his dad has cancer and just found out a couple of days ago that after surgery he may only have a 15% chance of living afterward..... I have been a complete and utter bitch to him because he gets on my nerves..... As I walked down the hall way tonight I stood there and took a glance in my sisters room and realized how bad I feel for being so mean but I have noticed that whenever him and I make a mends it only lasts for a short time before I get aggravated again with him being here...... I will admit that I miss our friendship, he has been there for me through a lot of hard times and has made my sister happy for the past 5 years, I just wish I knew why we fought so much, it makes no sense to me
...... After I realized how I was acting towards him, I started to cry, here is a guy that is losing his dad to cancer and I am being heartless.......
I am still a little teary eyed writing this, I had to get it off my chest...... He is being asshole but mostly towards me, I guess he has a good reason for it........
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Working 15 hours might suck but think of the millions that can't even find a job to begin with. Keep your head up!
I sure things will work out.
Friendships change over time. Perhaps when he no longer lives in the same space as you, the two of you will revert back to how it was.