holidays were designed to kill people.. i don't sleep proper and i have lost my mind. i realized this yesterday (i will not go into what made me realize this because i don't think anyone would ever talk to me again). next week consists of me working shifts not unlike the graveyard. which is fitting because i don't really ever see the sun anymore. its...
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solisis:
OH OH OH! I WAS WRONG!!! he put the cinnamon on the RAMEN FUCKIN NOODLES!!! GOD DAMMIT! I CAN'T LIVE LIKE THIS ANY LONGER!!!!!!
solisis:
what's on january 18th?
once again your not there and i wish you were here.
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marla:
read my journal. it's about you. well the last line anyway! actually don't. I'm a sick puppy.
suiciety:
thats funny i read your journal THEN read mine and saw your comment, so being the MR that i am i went back to your journal to see what you wrote only to find it was the same thing i just looked at two seconds ago.
last night, despite the distractions was beautiful. oceans crashed the sand. another time. another year. but where must we stand? i almost wish i had someone real to share it with.
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solisis:
http://www.gunbroker.com/auction/ViewItem.asp?Item=6103838
i think we need to gather $12,000 immediately... within the next 3 days
i think we need to gather $12,000 immediately... within the next 3 days
your not so sure if your sure of anything anymore, just returning the favor that you never gave. you hold accountable for his own death, the man you killed. bastard suns. we tend to knife ourselves. here, some praise and blood for adding to the collection of scars. you walk into a room, can you feel it drain the solitude? someone is falling down, it...
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solisis:
this is tainted... this is highly immoral....
which reminds me i gave away my n17 cd to a most unworthy recipient once and it burns me now that i want to hear it. how gracious the heart if misery is.
all is blood, darling Agathie.... you can curl your death now that the walls ring the echo of my pain. seal the wound. carterize it with my ice hot stare. i tried my rails but they wouldn't budge. i laced the brakes with a coat of pain. off i go then. over the face of malediction and deep into the abyss and beyond. forgive my forever absence. the demon you know now was the boy that you loved.
which reminds me i gave away my n17 cd to a most unworthy recipient once and it burns me now that i want to hear it. how gracious the heart if misery is.
all is blood, darling Agathie.... you can curl your death now that the walls ring the echo of my pain. seal the wound. carterize it with my ice hot stare. i tried my rails but they wouldn't budge. i laced the brakes with a coat of pain. off i go then. over the face of malediction and deep into the abyss and beyond. forgive my forever absence. the demon you know now was the boy that you loved.
dia:
Like a tomb bomb. Watch it. Did I light it? Amazing. This is how it's done. Now where is my error, that's what I want to know.
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i can see that your losing me.
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vespa666:
i lost you a long time ago haha whats going on? how have you been? your lucky you moved to cali it snowed last night blaaaah! hope your doing good
was_nicole:
your profile is almost as empty as mine.
sometimes i don't think you would do what you ask.
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possession09:
but that shouldnt come to a huge surprise......should it?
suiciety:
no not really. your right.
Past the field, January 2012. A nation that stands alone. Cold voices and faces pale, gathered unto their judgment day. Such pride remains unbroken. Such words remains unspoken. Just mothers to stand in vain, and cry tears and metal in the rain. Shall I recall when justice did prevail. No reason to be found, my reason has failed. Shall i call on you to guide...
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badm0j02:
after 10 bottles, i'm surprised you don't have a new hate for wine. heh
of course i think about your toe socks nightly...just not on your feet, on mine cuz goddamn its been cold.
It was great to have you. we will definetely call when we're up that way.
of course i think about your toe socks nightly...just not on your feet, on mine cuz goddamn its been cold.
It was great to have you. we will definetely call when we're up that way.
solisis:
what's this? you cheating on me? but I... i mean, we... it's just... aww FUCK!
don't be honest it only makes things worse. they seem like fears. when i was a boy you tried to tell me. don't tell me anything. don't run two at time. i took it all for granted, all the time i had. she wants. never looked back again. there was nothing left for me to see. sounded like mine. black windows all around me. please...
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solisis:
have i mentioned that i hate you lately? as soon as i get this q project molecular displacement device functioning I'm transmogrifying into a spectre of destruction and heading out to murder you.
be ready. solisis q will emerge victorious.
you might fight excellently, but i'm an excellent fighter.
don't be upset. remember, you killed me first
be ready. solisis q will emerge victorious.
you might fight excellently, but i'm an excellent fighter.
don't be upset. remember, you killed me first
dia:
no no no, you killed me first! Christ, get it straight boys.
like a crematorium. everything gets blurry up here. i can't see whats real. the lies all blend into the horizon. closer than i may think. the pavement always looked so damn close. only the embers remember.
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suiciety:
i explain nothing. because as of late i am not sure of anything.
solisis:
love, have you forgotten our handicap child m203? i know he has no handle but he's still family... (sniff)...
the twins are fabulous. i carried them around all day today in public. in my child carrier. it was grand. they kept asking about their other daddy. i said he took mp to disneyland now and will be around soon enough.
m203 stayed home and watched m4 all day. he's still under the weather but i think i can schedule an appointment to see the specialists in about a week.
let me tell you how much i adored our final moment the other night. the passion of a smooth break. you tagged my shoe. i tagged your leg. we kissed from about 30 feet away. for certain we need to share such moments more often. i thought of you today as i was perusing the floors of an urban outfitters earlier. the levels separated by staircases and platforms. open. ample leaping and rolling points. spacious environment with many obstacles to take cover behind. oh.... the moment we would share if only we had the place to ourselves. i dream of it daily. i dream of it nightly. i only wish we weren't hindered by the law.
the twins are fabulous. i carried them around all day today in public. in my child carrier. it was grand. they kept asking about their other daddy. i said he took mp to disneyland now and will be around soon enough.
m203 stayed home and watched m4 all day. he's still under the weather but i think i can schedule an appointment to see the specialists in about a week.
let me tell you how much i adored our final moment the other night. the passion of a smooth break. you tagged my shoe. i tagged your leg. we kissed from about 30 feet away. for certain we need to share such moments more often. i thought of you today as i was perusing the floors of an urban outfitters earlier. the levels separated by staircases and platforms. open. ample leaping and rolling points. spacious environment with many obstacles to take cover behind. oh.... the moment we would share if only we had the place to ourselves. i dream of it daily. i dream of it nightly. i only wish we weren't hindered by the law.