dont let them scare you. i have something to tell you. the cold tea inspired or reminded me of those words left unsaid. moments i was to scared to tell you ment something to me. i loved everytime we had a tea party in your basement. i drink it because of you. the same way you taught me. a little sugar and a little cream. your smiles are always missing. you always thanked me for all my words. i never told you i miss you.
to the kid with the short attention span. you are family, the only i have. all those summers at st. andy's. i still remember sitting at the movie theater with the girl who had the spikey hair. i still remember. what doesn't everyone know? this wraith needs a new home. i love you. i wish you would call more. parks make me smile because of you. did i tell you i still think about being on lakelands roof. royal oak will always be ours. i still wear your braclet after all these years. i fucked her after you fucked him and it killed me. i stole her because i was jealous. i never ment to make you feel the way you made me. just because i still love you doesn't mean i can stand the sight of your fucking face. sometimes i think i can still smell you. i always seem to give you what you want just as you don't want it anymore. chicago opened my eyes. california closed them. i will always remember driving around for hours. drive down 75 in tears only to turn around because it hurt more to be away. you make me alive. she makes me dead. i was to scared to tell you i was scared of missing the chance to color my heart. i didn't mean for you to find out the way you did. i love you and i am scared to call you. i don't want to waste my time. don't think that your a waste of mine. i think its calling from miles away. something is making me sick. i considered and still do consider you a friend. i secretly liked that you asked me to drive you to clevland. i will be forever grateful to this and you. i didn't want to be sitting there anymore. when he told you that everyone on this couch fucked you. sometimes i cry when i think about what i gave up for you. we're wrecking. remember when i called you from the hotel in ann arbor. you couldn't get home faster. i remember watching brandnew with your scarf around me thinking i love you. i should have kissed you that night. you shouldn't have fucked him the next. i miss the winter snow. parked outside my house waiting till you had to go. the stairs in the ramada when you told me you loved me. trying to feed the spider. the sims always make me think of you. i fucking love you. i miss you so much. you know for almost two years i have wanted to tell you that i love you. i still remember the night you drew the picture sitting on my desk. we spent almost everyday together and i never wanted otherwise. i choked when you took away my air. smiled with tears when you cried at the cd i made you. i should have just fucking called. i love all of you. i miss everything. i have nothing. you still know how to jumpstart my misery. i did what i said i would never. if i call will you forgive me? i have three months to die. afterwards i need you to live.
to the kid with the short attention span. you are family, the only i have. all those summers at st. andy's. i still remember sitting at the movie theater with the girl who had the spikey hair. i still remember. what doesn't everyone know? this wraith needs a new home. i love you. i wish you would call more. parks make me smile because of you. did i tell you i still think about being on lakelands roof. royal oak will always be ours. i still wear your braclet after all these years. i fucked her after you fucked him and it killed me. i stole her because i was jealous. i never ment to make you feel the way you made me. just because i still love you doesn't mean i can stand the sight of your fucking face. sometimes i think i can still smell you. i always seem to give you what you want just as you don't want it anymore. chicago opened my eyes. california closed them. i will always remember driving around for hours. drive down 75 in tears only to turn around because it hurt more to be away. you make me alive. she makes me dead. i was to scared to tell you i was scared of missing the chance to color my heart. i didn't mean for you to find out the way you did. i love you and i am scared to call you. i don't want to waste my time. don't think that your a waste of mine. i think its calling from miles away. something is making me sick. i considered and still do consider you a friend. i secretly liked that you asked me to drive you to clevland. i will be forever grateful to this and you. i didn't want to be sitting there anymore. when he told you that everyone on this couch fucked you. sometimes i cry when i think about what i gave up for you. we're wrecking. remember when i called you from the hotel in ann arbor. you couldn't get home faster. i remember watching brandnew with your scarf around me thinking i love you. i should have kissed you that night. you shouldn't have fucked him the next. i miss the winter snow. parked outside my house waiting till you had to go. the stairs in the ramada when you told me you loved me. trying to feed the spider. the sims always make me think of you. i fucking love you. i miss you so much. you know for almost two years i have wanted to tell you that i love you. i still remember the night you drew the picture sitting on my desk. we spent almost everyday together and i never wanted otherwise. i choked when you took away my air. smiled with tears when you cried at the cd i made you. i should have just fucking called. i love all of you. i miss everything. i have nothing. you still know how to jumpstart my misery. i did what i said i would never. if i call will you forgive me? i have three months to die. afterwards i need you to live.
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how are things?
since you know.. you haven't updated in oh, almost 2 years.
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teresa