suicidemarine

So the hurricane has brought 2 things.

1: I am drunk

2: I keep thinking of how I can't seem to find anyone that meshes with me. I have had my heart broken 2 times since I've been in the Marines and DAMN IT I am tired of it.

Why can't I just find someone who will like me for me and not judge me every second of the day.
I bear my soul to anyone that is close to me and if they aren't family they rip my heart out and exploit it. I just want someone that will love me. ME!. Not someone they want me to be but me. Am I asking too much? I was told that my last gf "I couldn't stand being my gf anymore."
WTF? I am a good guy. A nice person. I can't understand why I would be told that.

I guess I am just meant to be alone. What makes me think about it even more is the fact that my sister is going to have a baby. I am going to be an UNCLE. And I haven't even come close to sharing anything with anybody. I guess I am just destined to be alone for the rest of my life.

I am too shy to approach someone in the club or bar. I mean really if some beautiful chic was to approach me I would probably freeze up and ruin it.

Story of my life, ruin what happens good.

So, this is probably my last journal being that my gift subscription is probably almost up. I hope I see all of you in another life.

I love the world and all of you.

Good Bye,

Brian Dallas Lumpkin