Up until now I've not put many entries about my and Alice's marriage, I think that's because it's none of your business! Just Kidding my lovelies. Is it too soon for humour? I don't really know, but I'm trying to let my emotions just flow right now. I think to bottle them up any more than they have been would be dangerous.
I ended it on Thursday night. I had freaked out a couple of nights before, which I believe was my head just saying it'd had enough. This may not be the case at all, and it will be a long time before either of us can make proper sense out of this, but it's what I think right now.
We're getting things sorted for now, but we're both at the beginning of the healing process I think (hope). Alice has been great at putting into words how she feels, which has really helped me to reply with a greater understanding of both our perspectives, and has led to some good dialogue between us.
At the moment, we're just trying to sort out what we do next. 'The end' has come like a breath of fresh air, the first rays of sunshine after 3 months of smokey fire and brimstone held back by our emotional umbrellas, which finally started to singe around the edges as we clinged to one another. It seems we were both in the same place, at the same time, in the same house, in the same bodies as always, but this time, our thoughts were not our own, which ended up affecting our actions and our behaviour.
That is all for now. Thanks for watching.
I ended it on Thursday night. I had freaked out a couple of nights before, which I believe was my head just saying it'd had enough. This may not be the case at all, and it will be a long time before either of us can make proper sense out of this, but it's what I think right now.
We're getting things sorted for now, but we're both at the beginning of the healing process I think (hope). Alice has been great at putting into words how she feels, which has really helped me to reply with a greater understanding of both our perspectives, and has led to some good dialogue between us.
At the moment, we're just trying to sort out what we do next. 'The end' has come like a breath of fresh air, the first rays of sunshine after 3 months of smokey fire and brimstone held back by our emotional umbrellas, which finally started to singe around the edges as we clinged to one another. It seems we were both in the same place, at the same time, in the same house, in the same bodies as always, but this time, our thoughts were not our own, which ended up affecting our actions and our behaviour.
That is all for now. Thanks for watching.
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