suicidalinnc

HOLY FUCKIN SHIT!
man i almost updated earlyer today when i was hungover, but i decided i would come off like a whiney bitch... truth is, hangovers are just a result of my new favorite thing to do on nights with nothing to do, drink enough so that i am not wasted can can get home but just enough to impare myself and listen to tom waits and whiskeytown, stumble into my bed, light candles and just fulfill the songs of tom waits and whiskeytown by thinkin about bein lonely and shit while smokin and finishing off the 40 or like last nights 40 or something.
haha, not like i am in the depths of depression, like i was about a year ago... i just think its good to embrace the feelings that a good buzz and an at-times socially anxious mind can give you. "the heart of saturday night"... bein yer own best friend aint so bad.
speakin of tom waits, his new cd, 'real gone' came out today, which is where my tuesday cd allowance went today. i walked out of my job on friday cuz i was sick of the owner and the fact that i worked at a corporate franchise, so until i start workin again i cant blow all my cash on music... i need nourishment
anyway, peeps were talkin last night about who they wish their father figure was... good stuff was mentioned like robin williams and shit, johnny depp was a good one but i'd rather get really fucked up with him in france or somethin. but i cant get over how cool it would be if i was raised by fucking tom waits. his kid, casey waits plays on the new cd, along with les claypool... man i'll bet that kid totally smokes cigarettes and is the coolest in his middle school. i think i'll start a photo album of my male influences in life that i dont know.

everyone is leavin for fall break and i cant leave till thursday so tomarrow i am going skateboarding, no distractions. i promised myself. its gonna be gnar. maybe i'll get hurt and all my emergency contacts will be gone. ha.

p p peace, chris