Well i got my computer mostly fixed and updated. It only took all weekend. I now run an african version of linux called ubuntu. It's pretty good, but before i switched i tried getting mandrake linux to recognize the full size of my new hard drive and now everything is wiped. Fucking corporate linux can suck my balls. About the only thing i lost of any real importance was some pictures though.
I did watch a zillion movies this weekend though during all the formats and reinstalls. I stayed up late today to watch garden state on cable. I saw it in the theatre a year ago and i didn't really like it that much, but watching it a second time at home alone has caused me to appriciate it a lot more. There were little nuances i missed the first time and i think also my expectations were different in that i really didn't have any. In hindsight i think i went into the theatre wanting to see a romantic comedy, but watching it now i realize it's not a comedy at all. I'm not sure a word can be pinned on the style, maybe hopefull-tradgedy? I'm going to give it a couple of weeks and watch it again. I even appreciated the ending.
The show really got me thinking about a bunch of different things, but it's going to have to wait because I have some early morning missions to accomplish tommorrow. Lately I've only been having free time on the weekends and an occasional mid-week evening. Last weekend I read a bunch of books most notably a book of poems by leonard cohen. I dog eared the pages i liked and already i've bent most of the corners in the book.
Other stuff has been going on, but it's mostly the sinking realization that i am a collossal mess of a person. But i guess nobody really knows how much denial they're in, otherwise they wouldn't call it denial. Anyway, i'm starting to launch into another bullshit pontification and i should be going to bed even though i'm not very tired.
My move out is coming up soon and i'm really looking foward to it. They're going to call me as soon as the renovations are done on the apartment and then I can sign the papers for the key.
I did watch a zillion movies this weekend though during all the formats and reinstalls. I stayed up late today to watch garden state on cable. I saw it in the theatre a year ago and i didn't really like it that much, but watching it a second time at home alone has caused me to appriciate it a lot more. There were little nuances i missed the first time and i think also my expectations were different in that i really didn't have any. In hindsight i think i went into the theatre wanting to see a romantic comedy, but watching it now i realize it's not a comedy at all. I'm not sure a word can be pinned on the style, maybe hopefull-tradgedy? I'm going to give it a couple of weeks and watch it again. I even appreciated the ending.
The show really got me thinking about a bunch of different things, but it's going to have to wait because I have some early morning missions to accomplish tommorrow. Lately I've only been having free time on the weekends and an occasional mid-week evening. Last weekend I read a bunch of books most notably a book of poems by leonard cohen. I dog eared the pages i liked and already i've bent most of the corners in the book.
Other stuff has been going on, but it's mostly the sinking realization that i am a collossal mess of a person. But i guess nobody really knows how much denial they're in, otherwise they wouldn't call it denial. Anyway, i'm starting to launch into another bullshit pontification and i should be going to bed even though i'm not very tired.
My move out is coming up soon and i'm really looking foward to it. They're going to call me as soon as the renovations are done on the apartment and then I can sign the papers for the key.
kozmikgirl:
Well, I love that part in Garden State where the dude is talking to the doc, explaining how he figures he never needed the meds to begin with & the weird headaches, etc. I just laughed & laughed at that part... then rewound it & pressed play & laughed & laughed again as I watched it, completely stunned to the simularity to his conversation & my conversation with my therapist only months before. It is amazing how side effects blend into what you believe are "symptoms" & you are too doped up to realize it.