lately, i find it difficult to put my energies in the right places. it's hard for me to focus on an appropriate outlet. the easiest way to vent all of this /stuff/ inside me is sex... and while that's not a bad thing, my lover doesn't share my desperate need for oblivion. at least, not right now. every time i feel motivated to really do something i find myself misplacing the energy- i start working on a webpage, or getting upset about Cubicle Hell, or thinking too much about other lovers, keeping a diary. stupid shit. it's so hard to focus. it's so hard to concentrate, and it's hard to do so in just the right amounts- i burn out pretty easily if i feel like i'm forced to do a small number of things over and over again.
sigh. what is a boy to do?
sigh. what is a boy to do?