Hello there.
So, I know it has been quite some time since I have even posted on this site. But I have had a lot going on in my life for the last few months.
I have been trying to see my Dr. since September but since my job doesn’t give you time off for that it hasn’t been easy. I have made two appoints one I called out sick from work for because I had a test scheduled for a job that day so I needed the day off any way. but my Dr. called out sick that day. The on 11/11 I had the day off so I scheduled an appointment then about 2 weeks prior. but that morning I got call saying that my Dr. had a family emergency and wasn’t going to come in. Neither time did they schedule me with a different Dr. or even try to set anything up. when I called back to talk to them they lady that I talked to said that there’s nothing left for that day I told her this is the second time I have been canceled on and that I have a very complicated work schedule and I can’t just be late for work or just leave early. she said "well idk what do to then". pretty much like well that sucks for you then. I was pissed. I still am. every time I call for help because I feel like I can’t function my dr asks me to get an appt scheduled for the next day but when I finally get an appt she cancels and nothing ever happens. sometimes I’m so tired that I feel physically ill and I’ve even almost passed out. I don’t know what to do any more. I’ve asked time and time again what to do and all I get is make an appt. Why?! so you can ask me again how I feel? you know how I feel and you know what meds I’m taking. if I need to have blood work done then put in the order and I’ll go to the damn lab and do it. I’m just so worn out by all of this.
My life is about to be in even more chaos. my mother and her husband are getting a divorce. While you might be thinking "well so what?"...... I currently live with them. when I lost my job last year I had to move in to survive when I got my new job I was planning on staying a few months just to get some money built up so I could at least make I dent in my bills then move out. well I’m still here because when shit started to hit the fan he stopped letting my mom use his money for food and bills for the house and kinda told her to deal with it so I started helping. she hasn’t taken my money for house bills but I pay for groceries for me and if she runs out of money for gas she uses mine. I gave her free rein to use my money for what she needed. she never just takes it she always asks and I don’t mind at all. she’s my mom. she’s helped me a lot and she deserves the same help she gives. she took care of me and I’ll take care of her. so, now she and I need to find a new place to live. me, I don’t mind moving to an apartment but she kinda doesn’t want to. she would rather get a house or condo, something she owns and wants to live in for a long time. that is also fine with me. I told her to take her time and figure out what she needs to do to get the home she wants. this whole thing gives her anxiety and me as well. so, it’s all just a mess right now.
I don’t know what to do to help her and I don’t know what to do to help me. so, I’m overly stressed and constantly tired. I will try to get on here more often. I want to just take some time to play video games too. I miss it.
