sugarcunt

Home from a long night at work and I finally have a chance to breath. These past couple of weeks have been crazy. This is the first chance I have gotten to sit and be online in almost 3 weeks. Zort has been here for almost two weeks. He leaves Tues and Im not happy about it. The first week was ok but I had to work a crazy long shift in the middle of it that I dont normally have.

Then on Sunday we took the 7 hour drive to my homeland and he met my mom, her husband and my best friend. It was a short stay. We drove back on wed.

Then Thursday was just awful. Why? Not any reason I can think of. I had to work that night. But before that I just was sad, depressed, and angry. At about 10 am I got a call from one of the loan companies I got my school loans through. Something happened and they were not getting their payments any more. So that took 3 hours to deal with and get everything reset and get the loan deferred since Im working less the 15 hours a week. That did nothing but make the day worse. Work was bad slow and my co-worker was pitching a fit for hours about not having any cigarettes and getting angry and refused to clean anything. I got home and just cried. I cried and cried and I just wanted to eat and sleep.

Today wasnt too bad. Work was slow and boring. Before work I had to fix my hair experiment that had gone awry. Clean whatever I could of my apartment and spend the time I had between with Zort. We baked star wars cookies. he made the dough the night before and today he rolled it out and I just helped cut the cookies he pretty much did the rest while I cleaned and got ready for work.

This time has flown by and I dont like it. Ive wanted to do so many things and see so many people and its just not going like I hoped it would. But its still time with him and my mom. Short time but time none the less. Maybe someday soon Ill have money and time to just spend with people and not constantly stress over every little thing. Maybe.......