dont know why but ive been visiting some of my old pro-ana haunts. most have been shut down. there are hundreds of new ones. i feel sad because i can no longer be anorexic. when i had it i didnt ask for it to take me over. when i asked for it to come back, it wouldnt. i tried several times but it wouldnt take hold again. thats how i now its an illness, not a choice of lifestyle. perhaps the binging of bulimia scared away anorexia. i know the counsellors scared away the purging of bulimia. and left me with a horrible gain of weight.
i now feel like i am rambling like one of my patients. not good.
and why doesnt life insurance cover suicide? grr.
i now feel like i am rambling like one of my patients. not good.
and why doesnt life insurance cover suicide? grr.
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vixxen_:
Thanks for that. Mine is gone too. I'm actually comfortable in a muscular body, and THAT feels odd. All my best.
doublec:
hi! 