suebeshe

crickets funeral was today.. Funerals suck.

still been trying to stay sober.. Let's just say its a working progress or something..

Um.. Still work up at the landing strip.. I like it there.. Its fun

ps.. I need to get the fuck out of dodge.. Or however u spell that shit.. Using an I phone is hard work

Fuck I'm hung the fuck over! But here's the kicker while i'm piss drunk this morning I go "Oh NOO there is no way in hell that I can make my alcohol counsling meeting thing.." So at exactly 8 AM I decide i need to call them.. So i do... and before I can say "Oh by the way this is" The secratary says "Ok...
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well shit. i got fired tonight.. sucks to my fuckin ass.

apparently youre supose to take as much shit as motherfuckers put out and smile... but of course i ain't as fucking wise... i screamedyelled. kicked. threw. pointed. and threatened any bitch who wanted to get in my face... fuck i'm sorry but if your gonna start talking about people smoking crack and drinking booze...
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Been playing '"lets see how long i can keep skipping work and keep on drinking Crown." So far I am on lucky day number 3. Not so fond of people so much any more. But fuck when have i ever been,

So it's month four i believe and i'm still sick. Been to so many doctors and none of them can tell me whats wrong....
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so my plane leaves in la few hours. i'm not ready to go back. meh. i've been drinking beer and vodka for the past two hours. also i've been pretending not to hear the random crack head ass master knocking on my hotel room door every five minutes. i called the front office and i dunno. fuckin a. what if i wanted to sleep right...
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My anxiety levels have come back down to earth.. Even though I am in Augusta, GA for a few days... I feel calm. It's nice to get out of Oklahoma. I'll be back in Tulsa monday. For that i can wait! For by the time i get back to tulsa, the great state of oklahoma will have issued yet another warrent out for my arrest....
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being sick sucks..

last night i had a dream i was livin back in hawaii. fuck. it was a great dream. i miss it all.

i can't seem to accomplish anything. i've been back in Tulsa for like two weeks now.. and i'm still living at the Super 8. I guess these days are all about co-signers and not fucking cash money. So untill i find that apt...
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well i went to fucking sin city... yeah with like money.. you know.. i worked.. i fucking partied like a rock star.. i fucking had fun.. talked to a bitch who talked to rocks and shit.. well i lived with the fucking crazy bitch.. walked the strip... casinos.. got lost and shit.. all in all had fun.. but vegas not my place.. took the fucking...
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