suckad

I tried to quit cheerleading. It didn't work out too well. My coach begged me to stay. She was basically telling me that I was the team and what was holding it together. I don't like to look at it that way because then I feel obligated to be there, when I don't really like it anymore. I used to love it and was all for it, but now my lifes just taken a different turn. This isn't highschool anymore, so maybe thats why I'm not all about it. I'm not really close with any of the girls, and most of them are 14-16. I'm getting to be too old for this team. I don't know. I guess since this is the last year I can do it, I might as well toughen it out. I just don't want to babysit while I'm in Disney!! I wish Shane could come with, because then it would be easier for me. I'd have someone my age to hang out with.. and someone to buy my drinks hah. Last year some girls snuck alcohol down, how I don't know.. but they did. I have one person I can hang out with but knowing me I'll probably get sick of her hah.

On another note, I need a job. I don't understand how it's so hard, oh yeah, it's cape cod. I need a car. & to move out of this hell hole.

I need to shoot a damn set!