I grew up on the internet. I'm what we call a 'child of the internet' in our generation. I watched Suicide Girls go from terribly-shot webcam sets to the beauty that SG is today. When I was in sixth, seventh, and eighth grades I was doing everything I could to destroy myself- binging, purging, fasting, cutting, taking pills, seeking adrenaline pumpers… Well, I did all this while on Xanga and other blog sites where I saw pictures of women in the modeling industry. I was obsessed with America's Next Top Model and even more so with Twiggy and Gemma Ward and Kate Moss and the other model 'heroes' of our time. On these websites, however, there would occasionally be a Suicide Girl photo. I got curious about the logo and did some digging- it was then, in eighth grade, that I decided I would do this. I wanted to be an alternative model because that's just who I was. There isn't any use in trying to make yourself something you're not. It just doesn't work. I am the Succulent Gypsy and I will forever be this person that I am right this moment. Suck on that, eating disorders and body shaming!
