Okay, I'm really not out to change my personality, I just want to stop coming off to people in a certain way, because it's making me look bad, and it's unattractive. This really is just behavior modification. Work in progress! 
My Gazelle freestyle elite will be here between 10-5 pm, and I am so excited! I tried to go get a gym membership, I really did, but I had panic attacks just sitting in front of the building! I think because it would be a totally new experience, there's all these people there, it's unfamiliar....panic disorders suck. So hopefully I'll like this machine and it will help me get into better shape. I get winded taking the trash out, people! It's amazing how quickly I got out of shape! Even more amazing is that I let it happen. I was dancing from age 5 to age 23 (some of it ballet, some of it....NOT, haha) so I have always kinda needed that physical activity. I guess mommy-hood just makes you too tired to excercise.
I am so excited about Star Wars! I can't see it until the weekend cuz my son has school and I have work, but we'll probably go on Sat. and Sun. both. Of course, Gage will have to bring his lightsaber, and wear his Star wars outfit - Vader sneakers, Vader shirt, Vader socks and Vader underoos! Oh, and Saturday The whole family is going to Chris & Pitt's BBQ for dinner, and Sunday I'm going shopping with my mommy! It'll be a good weekend for sure!
Oh yeah so, I'm totally pissed because I can't send in my SG set. I forgot to get totally naked, I'm only topless, and the photoset guidelines say you have to have a fully exposed bum. FUCK. So I have to re-shoot it in a few weeks when my hair gets re-done. Plus I might get a tat next week so I would have to let that heal first too. I am so sick of shooting pointless sets......oh well, they get better every time, so maybe that's a good thing!
I learned something this week. About sex toys. I was never interested in them, because I thought fucking a machine could never be as much fun as fucking a person. But all my friends swore on those little bullet vibrators, that they are the greatest thing ever and I'm missing out. So I got one, for $25 which in my opinion is way too much, but whatever. I used it alone the first time, and it was soooo boring even with 6 different speeds and pulse patterns. The second time I used it with my husband, and it actually took me longer to get off which really sucked cuz it takes me forever anyways! It makes me wonder about my friends sexual abilities...Do they just not know their bodies very well so they get off better with toys? Or maybe they get off on the idea of foreign objects in/on their parts? I really don't get what the draw is. What I do know, is that the little bullet will stay in my drawer, sad and alone for ever and ever....or until one of our friends wants to use it.
My Gazelle freestyle elite will be here between 10-5 pm, and I am so excited! I tried to go get a gym membership, I really did, but I had panic attacks just sitting in front of the building! I think because it would be a totally new experience, there's all these people there, it's unfamiliar....panic disorders suck. So hopefully I'll like this machine and it will help me get into better shape. I get winded taking the trash out, people! It's amazing how quickly I got out of shape! Even more amazing is that I let it happen. I was dancing from age 5 to age 23 (some of it ballet, some of it....NOT, haha) so I have always kinda needed that physical activity. I guess mommy-hood just makes you too tired to excercise.
I am so excited about Star Wars! I can't see it until the weekend cuz my son has school and I have work, but we'll probably go on Sat. and Sun. both. Of course, Gage will have to bring his lightsaber, and wear his Star wars outfit - Vader sneakers, Vader shirt, Vader socks and Vader underoos! Oh, and Saturday The whole family is going to Chris & Pitt's BBQ for dinner, and Sunday I'm going shopping with my mommy! It'll be a good weekend for sure!
Oh yeah so, I'm totally pissed because I can't send in my SG set. I forgot to get totally naked, I'm only topless, and the photoset guidelines say you have to have a fully exposed bum. FUCK. So I have to re-shoot it in a few weeks when my hair gets re-done. Plus I might get a tat next week so I would have to let that heal first too. I am so sick of shooting pointless sets......oh well, they get better every time, so maybe that's a good thing!
I learned something this week. About sex toys. I was never interested in them, because I thought fucking a machine could never be as much fun as fucking a person. But all my friends swore on those little bullet vibrators, that they are the greatest thing ever and I'm missing out. So I got one, for $25 which in my opinion is way too much, but whatever. I used it alone the first time, and it was soooo boring even with 6 different speeds and pulse patterns. The second time I used it with my husband, and it actually took me longer to get off which really sucked cuz it takes me forever anyways! It makes me wonder about my friends sexual abilities...Do they just not know their bodies very well so they get off better with toys? Or maybe they get off on the idea of foreign objects in/on their parts? I really don't get what the draw is. What I do know, is that the little bullet will stay in my drawer, sad and alone for ever and ever....or until one of our friends wants to use it.
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posi is short for positive it's sorta a straightedge thing...
HHHmmmm for women its really an aspect of the mind that makes sex stuff work... different stroke for diffrent folks...