Where does the energy go?
While I'm sure I'm not the only one on this website to write about this, I can't help but feel a bit depressed lately. I think I understand the reasons well-enough. No girl, Valentine's coming up, shitty weather, friends not acting like friends, etc., etc. And while I'm writing this, I am entirely aware that there are people who have it way, way, WAY worse than me. So by what right do I dare complain? No right. Just a privelage that I choose to exercise.
But in the midst of this emotional funk I can't help but wonder: where does all the energy go? Has it been drained away by rude customers and thoughtless friends? Is it locked away in the recesses of my mind? Was it all an illusion to begin with? My feeble mind tricking my even more feeble body into having reason enough to get out of bed each morning?
Self-indulgant, I know. But if there's one place that caters to this kind of mentality, I'm pretty sure this is it.
While I'm sure I'm not the only one on this website to write about this, I can't help but feel a bit depressed lately. I think I understand the reasons well-enough. No girl, Valentine's coming up, shitty weather, friends not acting like friends, etc., etc. And while I'm writing this, I am entirely aware that there are people who have it way, way, WAY worse than me. So by what right do I dare complain? No right. Just a privelage that I choose to exercise.
But in the midst of this emotional funk I can't help but wonder: where does all the energy go? Has it been drained away by rude customers and thoughtless friends? Is it locked away in the recesses of my mind? Was it all an illusion to begin with? My feeble mind tricking my even more feeble body into having reason enough to get out of bed each morning?
Self-indulgant, I know. But if there's one place that caters to this kind of mentality, I'm pretty sure this is it.
[Edited on Jan 31, 2006 8:58PM]