stuck_e

So after sleeping almost 24 hours I think I am almost recovered from the Vortex party. Lots of love to all who came out and had a good time with us. Both Chelle and I had a blast and for those of you who saw Chelle KNOW she had a good time, and she remembers every bit of it, esp her lap dance at the Clermont, which I will never forget either. So we have a few weeks to recover before we do it all over again, my 31st b-day it rolling up on the 14th and we are going back to the Clermont (sorry Lizzy) and throwing down and this will be my turn to get blowed away. I know none of you have ever seen me drunk, I usually only have two or three drinks and then I am done for the night but this time I am going all out. I am a fun drunk, I do tend to get loud, and horny (thank god i have a wife to feel on, so i don't feel up any of you guys who show up), but if i drink too much I tend to black out and what happens then I do not know, I never remember, I only hear the stories. I am really looking forward to this. Since moving away from Americus in 03, I have not had a big B-day party, we were gonna do it last year but just could not do it. All of my friends from college have moved on and I am soooooo bad at keeping in touch, and at times i really miss the close group i had back then. it wasn't until moving back up here to the ATL that I wanted to try and move ahead myself and meet new people and try and get that sense of family back with the people I consider friends.

I am a very social person, and I get along with everyone, but I keep people at arms distance, and I have problem trusting people. That is something I have a huge problem with, and also something I want to change. I have been trying to do so over the past six months. I have been really taking advantage of this site lately and have really meet a few friends that I would love to hang out with way more than I do now. When I let someone in and think of them as a true friend, for me it's closer than a brother or sister. My mom always told me that you can never pick your family, you can only choose your friends. My mom's side of the family is completly fucked up and if you knew half the story you could see how she could say that. I always trusted in that saying more than she knew. I had my family, you know Mom, Pop , and lil bro, but outside of that I really didn't get to know my family and when I did i cut them off my family tree. My family has always been my friends. and for 5 years now, we have all drifted apart, graduated college, got married, had kids and just had to do our own thing, and we all have moved to other states or whatnot. and I have been lost. Chelle has been my rock and she is my best friend, I know that sometimes she looks at me when I am thinking of the and feels guilty, because I moved away to be with her. That was my choice, she did not make me do that.

I know this is odd to anyone who reads my blog from time to time, because I don't use this medium to open up, but the other night hanging out with all the people that I have meet through this site, I looked around and saw all these people with whom I do have things in common, be it being a cook and a foodie, a comic book fan, or loving old school pin up's, and at the very least loving the art of nude ladies. I looked at Colin, Adrea, Cat, Blue, Alex, Rya, Tim, Dan, and Lizzy and all of the new people I meet and I was the happiest I have been in years. To all of my friends both old and new thank you. Heading into another b-day for the first time in 3 years I am not thinking "how am I gonna go another year without my mother to talk to" or "I really wish Doug was here". I am now looking forward to what new memories I can make with you all and can get all sappy about in another 30years.

Thank you

Stuckey