EDIT: remember when I said my next day off wasnt until Oct 2nd? Yeah.. well.... now I have to work Oct. 2nd.. my next day off isnt until OCTOBER FUCKING NINTH! yea.. I get to work 3 weeks, straight... including overtime.. without a day off.. fucking awesome... :-(
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it really sucks when you can't rely on people... I'm so sick of being let down.... I dont know what it is... like I've got a fucking sign on my head that says its ok to fuck me over, blow me off, and generally not give a fuck.
With the exception of a few.... I feel like, I'm not all that important to some of my "friends".... I get blown off on a regular basis.... if I didnt call them, I'd probably never hear from them... kinda sucks when you really need someone to count on....i feel so lonely lately...
sorry my updates havent been all that "uplifting" and entertaining lately.... Ive been extremely manic, and the majority of those moods are on the down side... I need to see a doctor about some things that are concerning me... but... I dont want to go alone... and I dont have any health insurance at the moment... so i dont know what to do...
at least i get to go to PA in October... it cant come soon enough... I havent seen heartattacked since we went to Mexico in February, and I havent seen my counterpart Tim, and our loyal sidekick, The Gay in even longer than that... these kids are my favorite.. no one tops em.... I dont know what I'd do without them... and seeing them will be amazing.... just wish my stay was longer, and sooner... we'll make the best of our brief visit...
Anyways...I need to work at 6am... and I havent slept much the past few nights.... so I'm gonna go take care of the tatt.. and attempt to get some rest....
yeah.. that about sums it up...
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it really sucks when you can't rely on people... I'm so sick of being let down.... I dont know what it is... like I've got a fucking sign on my head that says its ok to fuck me over, blow me off, and generally not give a fuck.
With the exception of a few.... I feel like, I'm not all that important to some of my "friends".... I get blown off on a regular basis.... if I didnt call them, I'd probably never hear from them... kinda sucks when you really need someone to count on....i feel so lonely lately...
sorry my updates havent been all that "uplifting" and entertaining lately.... Ive been extremely manic, and the majority of those moods are on the down side... I need to see a doctor about some things that are concerning me... but... I dont want to go alone... and I dont have any health insurance at the moment... so i dont know what to do...
at least i get to go to PA in October... it cant come soon enough... I havent seen heartattacked since we went to Mexico in February, and I havent seen my counterpart Tim, and our loyal sidekick, The Gay in even longer than that... these kids are my favorite.. no one tops em.... I dont know what I'd do without them... and seeing them will be amazing.... just wish my stay was longer, and sooner... we'll make the best of our brief visit...
Anyways...I need to work at 6am... and I havent slept much the past few nights.... so I'm gonna go take care of the tatt.. and attempt to get some rest....
yeah.. that about sums it up...VIEW 11 of 11 COMMENTS
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