I've got some big decisions to make... a lot of things to think about...I've been walking around in a haze since I got home from Mexico.. theres so much in my head...
I'm giving serious thought to moving there, my goal would be to be living there by this time next year, if not sooner. That'll give me time to take care of my commitments here, and get
things squared away. I couldn't just up and leave, that wouldn't be fair of me, but I feel this is something that I need to do.
Leaving Mexico this year was harder than last year... I cried.. I couldnt sleep... I've had all these thoughts running through my head. I've been questioning all my reasons for staying
in MA... and to be honest, there really aren't any legitimate ones.
My heart belongs in Mexico... the people.. the culture... the city.. nowhere else that I have been, have I felt so.. comfortable... so at ease... like I was free to just be myself, relax.. so... at home... I love myself when I'm there, I smile constantly, I live day by day, and take everything in stride...
My friends there, mean the world to me, and have proven to me, more than most of my local friends, that I mean the world to them. Its a closeness I can't describe.. being there last week, even though it was 14 months since I had seen them all last... it seemed like we never missed a day, like we'd been together all along... so in tune with each other, so warm, so welcoming, just amazing..
The city itself, and all its culture, and beauty, the architecture, the history... I love every part of it. I want to be a part of it... I NEED to be a part of it.
I want to feel the way I do when I'm there, all the time.. I want to be there, with the people I know, the people that genuinely care about me. I'm sick of the cold hearted, fake people Ive met here in the north.
I want a life in the sun, I want to live each day for all its worth, and not worry about tomorrow until it comes.
I dont want to be tied down... I dont know how to explain this all that well... its just something inside me..something I can feel... I can't find the words to do it justice.., I'm sure some of you will know what I mean...
A couple friends of mine were looking at my pictures and said.. "I've never seen you look so happy before..."and its true...
So now its time to make some decisions, to get to work, and really put some thought into this, weigh out the pros and cons... figure out how to go about this the right way.
I hope to be back there in July or August, to get a better idea of things, as far as apartments, and jobs... and then hopefully back in November for Dia De Los Muertos, or at the latest December, to finalize some plans.
My heart aches to be back there... I was a zombie at work today, I couldn't focus on anything...
I'm not here anymore.. I can't be here anymore... its not where I'm meant to be...
So begins the next chapter in my life...
and now.. here's some pics, as I promised...
I'm giving serious thought to moving there, my goal would be to be living there by this time next year, if not sooner. That'll give me time to take care of my commitments here, and get
things squared away. I couldn't just up and leave, that wouldn't be fair of me, but I feel this is something that I need to do.
Leaving Mexico this year was harder than last year... I cried.. I couldnt sleep... I've had all these thoughts running through my head. I've been questioning all my reasons for staying
in MA... and to be honest, there really aren't any legitimate ones.
My heart belongs in Mexico... the people.. the culture... the city.. nowhere else that I have been, have I felt so.. comfortable... so at ease... like I was free to just be myself, relax.. so... at home... I love myself when I'm there, I smile constantly, I live day by day, and take everything in stride...
My friends there, mean the world to me, and have proven to me, more than most of my local friends, that I mean the world to them. Its a closeness I can't describe.. being there last week, even though it was 14 months since I had seen them all last... it seemed like we never missed a day, like we'd been together all along... so in tune with each other, so warm, so welcoming, just amazing..
The city itself, and all its culture, and beauty, the architecture, the history... I love every part of it. I want to be a part of it... I NEED to be a part of it.
I want to feel the way I do when I'm there, all the time.. I want to be there, with the people I know, the people that genuinely care about me. I'm sick of the cold hearted, fake people Ive met here in the north.
I want a life in the sun, I want to live each day for all its worth, and not worry about tomorrow until it comes.
I dont want to be tied down... I dont know how to explain this all that well... its just something inside me..something I can feel... I can't find the words to do it justice.., I'm sure some of you will know what I mean...
A couple friends of mine were looking at my pictures and said.. "I've never seen you look so happy before..."and its true...
So now its time to make some decisions, to get to work, and really put some thought into this, weigh out the pros and cons... figure out how to go about this the right way.
I hope to be back there in July or August, to get a better idea of things, as far as apartments, and jobs... and then hopefully back in November for Dia De Los Muertos, or at the latest December, to finalize some plans.
My heart aches to be back there... I was a zombie at work today, I couldn't focus on anything...
I'm not here anymore.. I can't be here anymore... its not where I'm meant to be...
So begins the next chapter in my life...
and now.. here's some pics, as I promised...
more pics can be found here.. I'm not done cropping and uploading...
Mexico Pics
oh yea.. this is a horrible picture of me, and I was quite intoxicated.. but such an amusing moment... when we taught the Mexican boys about...
D'OH!
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its good to see that you educated the mexican boys about one of the most essential things in life..the shocker is probably the healthiest thing for each and every culture.