streetmuse

Thanks for the well wishes,guys... sorry I didnt respond individually... I'm just not that motivated these days...

yesterday at work, I got kicked in the back by one of the horses.. knocked the wind outta me... really sucked.. he got me right on my spine, above the tailbone... fuckin bastard... its a horse who's owner I cant stand, too....

So I worked the rest of the day, in a lot of pain... couldnt do any riding... still dont think I'll be able to do any today, either...

I've fallen into a rut again, not really sure why... things were good for a while.. now I'm back to where I was... exhausted, lonely, depressed.... empty.....

I need out of this house... I need a roommate...I need an apartment... I need to be social again... which is hard when you work over 70 hours a week... and pretty much have to be on call 24/7 if something happens...

and its like pulling teeth to get my so called "friends" to make a trip out here and hang out.... there arent many people in this state that I feel close to anymore... my heart is in PA and Mexico... oh what I'd give to move to Mexico with my friends there...

My Bday is Feb 16th... so far I have no idea what I'm doing for it... last year I was in Mexico... and it was great... but.. my friends back home all forgot about it.... I didnt get one gift... not that its about the material things... but... a call, a text or an email would have been nice... especially since I go out of my way to do things for them on their Bdays.... so I need plans.... its a thursday night... Id want to go out the saturday after, but... I'm stuck going to my cousins wedding reception...

Thats another thing... they eloped and went to vegas and got married.. now they're coming back here and having a party, months later.... I think thats cheating.... if you elope, you do it to keep it simple, and not have a big wedding... this seems like a way to get more gifts, if you ask me.... but.. I need to be there, he's my cousin, and we're close.... I also need a date for this damn wedding... anyone wanna come with me? We can get drunk, and watch my insane family... theres bound to be a fight or 2...

I need to go to PA and see my friends there... but I need someone to come along for the 5/6 hour car ride.. it'll be fun.. I promise. and wont cost you a dime... you just need to be able to help drive some, and keep me entertained...

So this is kind of a whining, depressing entry... sorry I dont have anything better for you guys...

One plus side is... I have a tatt appointment on Sat the 11th..and it will be amazing, anyone wanna come with?

this is what I need from you...
1. Love love love
2. Company
3. A roommate and an apartment
4. Something fun to do on my Bday
5. A date to my cousins wedding
6. Someone to road trip to PA with me
and if none of the above is possible...
large quantities of rum, xanax, and valium will do...

oh and I still dont have pics of my hair.. because.. I havent been feel to sexy lately.. and hate all the ones Ive taken... maybe soon...