streetmuse

My grandmothers sister passed away last saturday... she might as well have been my grandmother.. she was always at family functions, and close with my immediate family. I loved that woman, she was just awesome.. loved her attitude, and sass.... I'm really sad to see her go....

what really upsets me, is the fact that I'm just finding out now, over a week later... after the services...

my father was away on vacation, he didnt get back until last night... my grandmother didnt want to ruin his trip, so she didnt tell him, and she didnt want to "upset" me.. so she waited until my dad got home, and told him... and had him tell me....

In a way, I understand why she did it this way.. but at the same time, I'm not 5... I'm an adult... of course I'm going to be upset at the news of a passing family member... I dont need to be left in the dark, for fear of upsetting me... because honestly.. I'm more upset now, that I wasnt able to go and pay my respects, and say my goodbye's... she's been living in FL, the last time I saw her was last January... but the funeral was up here, because this is where her family is...

I'm just not really sure what to think of this all... her death was also unexpected... she'd been sick... on and off.. but last I heard, they tried some new treatment.. she was reacting famously, was doing wonderful, was up and out, and back home... and now.. she's gone.... I'm really going to miss her...