Thank you so much for the love on my recent sets! I was so happy to wake up this morning to see "Asrai" on the front page!
I won a contest on reddit just over a year ago to shoot with @darryldarko in Portland. I stayed with @Toxic and had the BESSSST fucking time ever. I couldn't have felt more at home! The trip was amazing and when I came back, my set "Feathers in the Wind" had been purchased by Suicide Girls. Seems like FOREVER ago but it was only a year! It's been such an exciting year full of new adventures...I really feel like I'm growing into myself and attracting the life I've always dreamed of having.
So, let's talk about the next year of life!! @bloghomework ! <3
I recently had a fashion show and ventured a little beyond what I thought I was able to do.
I won't lie, there was one day where I had a temper tantrum and sat there crying while sewing my first dress EVER while saying, "I can't do thiiiiiiiiiiiis". It was hilarious looking back on it.
With my disorder, Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, deadlines can be intensely difficult. They're difficult anyway, but when you're throwing yourself in and out of flare ups and attempting to push yourself physically and mentally beyond your limits, emotions run real high. Not only did my body fight me every step, but my brain fog was as thick as August on the West Coast. That's a huge thing that people tend to forget when it comes to chronic pain- brain fog. It affects your ability to think, rationalize, and control your emotions. It was a month and a half of me being a basket case. I'm really thankful for the opportunity, though, because I proved to myself that it is possible. I can do everything I want and need to, I just have to do it differently or take a little more time. I just have to prepare.
So now I'm working on setting up a series of photoshoots to showcase a new collection of lingerie and harness items! Over the next year, I want to work on creating fetish style custom harness' wear to cover tattoos but also be functional. I know I'm not the only one that's always wearing a sweater on one arm during the summer to protect against sun damage and fading, so I've begun designing elastic harness' to slip over arms/shoulders/across the chest. I'm still in the drawing stages, and finding the right quality and kinds of fabrics to use, but I'm really stoked on how everything is looking so far. I'm also working on fantasy costume pieces, which are SO much fun!
I recently went on an adventure to Squamish with my partner Liam and picked a bunch of sticks and moss to decorate with. THAT'S HOW FUN COSTUME DESIGN IS. Hahahah
I also decided to take up hula hooping/hoop dance and want to get really fuckin' good at it. It's difficult, again because my disorder, because once my body starts to heat up, the veins in my lower body expand and the blood pools in my legs, making me dizzy and nauseous and eventually pass out. So I have to be really careful about hydration, regulating my temperature/heart rate/blood pressure. But FUCK IT MAN I WANNA HULA!!! Hahaha. I'm not going to let anything stop me :)
Speaking of my disorder and fashion design, a few other ladies in my support group like @adria @annisa and @cherry got me thinking about how few options there are for fashionable medical wear. We so often need special shoes, socks (compression socks, gloves, etc.) and medical braces, and most options are just awful. We end up throwing fashion out the window for functionality, and anyone with an illness or chronic condition will tell you it's the little things that make life so much better- like doing your hair, make up, or having nice things to wear!
It's like if you have really large breasts and all you can find at the store are beige and white bras- there's nothing fashionable and magical unless you search heaven and the high seas!
My goal is to design really cute compression socks, gloves, and attachments for braces like bows, studs, and personalized embroidery patches to help people with disabilities really rock the shit out of their necessary medical supplies. I even painted my new cane and attached amethyst crystals to the handle to make it something I can be proud to use. I'm tired of going out with my friends and feeling silly with my braces- I want to feel beautiful, and I want to help others feel beautiful too!
So that's ma plan, Stan :)
Oh, also, shoooooting. I shot a set of @psypher and here's a sneaky peek.
Isn't she a fuckin' BABE??!!?!
So yeah, if you're in the Vancouver or Lower Mainland area and wanna shoot a set for SG, or wanna shoot just in general, I'm totally down. Let's collab!
Also, @just_sick and I are planning on going down to Portland and Seattle for a few days this summer and are workin' as a team! So contact either of us if you're interested. Dates to be decided!
WOOOOOOO!
