I love these blog topics that @missy and @rambo suggest! They're so much fun to read and write.
Alright, here we go. Here are 10 random things about me!
1. I can't drive.
I had my licence one time, and it was only because I was going to live with a couple that was expecting their first child and I needed it in case of emergency. I've been in front of the wheel of a vehicle two times, and both times I had a panic attack. There was a time when I felt like I should get it, but then my best friend passed away in a car accident and I lost my confidence. Maybe one day I'll do it, but for now I don't need it and have zero desire to get it.
2. I am very honest. Perhaps too honest.
What I mean by this is I seriously lack the ability to hide my reactions and emotions. If I'm sitting on the train and somebody sitting beside me makes a gross sound, I'll make this face, or one similar to it...
And then I realize I'm doing it and I stop. But I sincerely can not help it. It happens all the time.
Also, if I'm upset about something I will tell you. This is actually almost always a good thing, especially in relationships, because I don't hold grudges or dwell on things for weeks before finally blowing up in someone's face... I was always taught to go by, "This is what you did, this is how it made me feel, and this is how we can rectify he situation". It leads to great and honest discussion, and almost always avoids an argument.
So my honesty is both good and bad, I suppose.
3. I want to be a Fae. Seriously. No, like, seriously.
I have this theory that everything you can imagine could possibly exist somewhere in this Universe or another. Unicorns, Dragons, Cthulhu, etc. I like to imagine that everything from myth and lore could be out there, or was at some point or another. When I was growing up, my Mom raised me with a lot of traditional Pagan beliefs. She loves faeries. I remember taking walks through the Ranch, forest and rivers, and she would point out fungus on the trees and say they were faerie houses. My favourite movies and stories always involved Fae. Because of my Mom, everything in my life continues to appear to be magical. She taught me to stop and observe, and take my time. To this day, I'll go for walks in the city and stop at trees to admire their beauty while others rush past me on their way to point B.
When asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, I often responded "A faerie". If I'm being completely honest, that's still true! If I could have pointed cuspids and ears, my life would be soooo complete. I actually do plan to have my cuspids extended and pointed slightly, but unfortunately my collagen and connective tissue is much to weak to consider having the Elf Ear surgery.
I am absolutely 100% at home in nature, and am the most content when meditating next to a river. I have also always been eerily good with animals, especially those that people deem to be unfriendly. I always collected and brought home animals and bugs with me when I was younger, much to the delight of my parents.
Seriously, guys, I want to be a Fae, and it saddens me that it isn't my reality.
Call me silly, I don't mind.
4. I love giving more than receiving.
I'm so bad, guys. You don't understand how bad I am.
I almost always tell people what I got them for Christmas, I almost always give it to them early, and I can not for the life of me keep my mouth shut.
I usually make people gifts. I've always been very crafty, and am always discovering new talents and hobbies. I work really hard on making things that are personal, so I get very excited about seeing their reaction. I almost always ask, "Do you like it?!?!?!!!". I'm probably very annoying about it, but I honestly just really love giving.
5. I love to rap.
I memorize and recite rap lyrics like nobody's business. I used to do slam poetry performances, too, but haven't written anything worth showing anyone in quite awhile. I'm not saying I'm any good, I just do it because I love it and it get's me all pumped up. My favourite artists to listen to right now are Mykki Blanco, Brooke Candy, Iggy Azalea, Azalea Banks, and Die Antwoord! Iggy and Die Antwoord are both coming to Vancouver and I couldn't get tickets to either of them. It made me sad..
6. I can't cry when I know that someone or something is purposefully trying to manipulate my emotions.
The perfect example would be movies...
I've always been like this and I'm not entirely sure why, but it's very rare that I will cry in a movie. I remember seeing "Old Yeller" when I was 5, and being told that it was a sad movie and I would most likely cry. I thought I was supposed to cry, that that was the normal reaction to movie-induced sadness, so I forced myself to. But even then, the tears didn't last long.
Any time I've watched a sad movie with my family, they've all turned to me with tears in their eyes and called me a cold hearted bastard.
I don't know why, I just don't have feels when I know something is meant to make me sad.
7. I never went through a crazy party-my-face-off stage.
In Canada, the legal drinking age is 19. While all the other people my age were out every weekend getting their party on, I was at home watching movies, reading books, or creating something. I can probably count the amount of times I've been drunk on my fingers... Maybe like 8. I just don't enjoy it. I don't enjoy clubs, I don't enjoy bars.
I DO enjoy concerts, raves, and events though, and continue to go to those when something good comes to Vancouver.
I also really like house parties and go to those whenever I have the chance.
8. I was born in Northern Canada and moved to Vancouver when I was 9. I have an accent from Northern Canada that kicks up when I speak really fast. I also have Sioux native blood, which you can not tell by my pale white skin.
Most people that live in Vancouver aren't from Vancouver. I consider myself to be from here, because I grew up visiting periodically until finally settling down here when I was almost 9 years old. Most people that live in Vancouver have immigrated from other parts of the world or Canada. The population is mostly Asian and Indian, actually. We live in a very diverse and multicultural city, and I absolutely adore it!
9. I have no idea what movies are in theatres, what music is on the radio, or what celebrities are popular unless someone tells me about it.
I've been separated by television and mainstream entertainment for about two years now. I've never cared much for Hollywood anyway, but obviously watched tv and such when I was younger. I don't watch tv, I have netflix. The only way I know about movies coming out is from Reddit, Liam, or if I search for movie trailers online. Same with music- I'm honestly so lost. I have so many people that try and talk to me about a well known person and I just have no idea what or who they are talking about. Liam will come home singing a song that is popular on the radio, and he'll expect me to sing along with him because it's apparently well known. It's pretty funny sometimes.
I love watching horror movies and usually have knowledge of what's coming out when it comes to mystery, thriller, and sci-fi genres.
It's come to the point where I have absolutely no idea who the people on magazine covers are unless it has to do with tattoo and related magazines.
10. I'm scared of the dark and sleep with a night light. I also can't sleep alone, I've never been able to. I need an animal or other human there. I actually would periodically sleep in my parents bed because of nightmares up until I was about 14.
If you were to shut a door on me and turn off the light, I would panic. I would tear my fingernails at the door, bang against it as hard as I could, and scream at the top of my lungs. In case you haven't guessed, this happened before... Pitch black room and my cousin thought it would be funny to trap me and not open the door until I was quiet.
The only reason I went quiet is because I couldn't breathe from panic. When he opened the door I fell on the floor and passed out. I was about 17 at the time, too.
Alrighty! I think that's about it, eh?
Thank you SO much for the love on my set "Feathers in the Wind" that went live on the front page today! This has been the most surreal week of my life, and I honestly can't believe that my dreams are coming true. I'm at a loss for words!!
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