Explanation

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So, I really don't want to get in to too many details as to what's going on with my sister and I.
But long story short...
I couldn't afford to give her $100 for a Christmas gift for my parents and she got angry with me.

Then we stopped talking.

Now when we talk it's really awkward and she's acting cold toward me. She says she's busy and will text back but never does. It's like having an ex boyfriend.

And I don't know what to do.
There's a lot of back story, a lot of history behind this situation, a lot of shit, and I don't want to get into it.

Just know that my sister and I have a rough relationship and I'm sad and don't know how to fix it. I feel like everyone is frustrated at me, or that I just don't "fit". I don't know how to explain it. Have you ever been in a room full of people but felt alone?

I know things will work out in the end. With everything. But right now I'm feeling a bit stuck, a bit sad. Winter time isn't a fun time for me. I'm really looking forward to getting away next week.

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stormyent:
@lewolf That is honestly one of the most helpful things anyone has ever said! I know the seasons behind eveerything, and it's not that they don't make sense it's just that it was all a major overreaction. She's under a lot of stress, and I know that, so I let her know that her words (She said some really..truly awful things to me that were uncalled for and surprising....) hurt me but that I understand she is going through a rough time. I keep calling every once in awhile, texting every so often, just showing her what I'm up to and updating her on my life like she wants, asking about hers and telling her if she needs me she can always call me...But she hasn't called, or really returned my text messages. I get really emotionally distraught when someone is upset with me and I can't fix it. It tears me up inside. 
lewolf:
It sounds like you are taking the right actions on your end, Darlin,  and have a clear view of what’s going on.  At the same time, her silence towards you maynot be because she’s so overwhelmingly mad at you… perhaps just feeling her ownwalls caving in on her right now and is trying to deal with it in her own way,good or bad.  The anger at you she demonstrated(that you mentioned) may be more akin to a nasty impulsive vent rather thananything deeper.  Doesn’t make any ofthis easier for you, I know, but how you are handling it will help in the longrun.  Just be there.  It always saddens me to see, in the spirit ofpeace-keeping and peace-making, bad behavior being brushed off or ignored, thusempowering it to raise its ugly head once again in the future… even faster andstronger than before.  People do that inall walks of our lives, very prominently in politics, and I see no good reasonto accept such pandering in our daily relationships with our family andfriends.  I believe in curing the disease,and not just treating the symptoms. Anyway, Darlin, I hope this works itself out, and soon for you.  We’re supposed to come together this time ofyear, not let the emotions worn on our sleeves drive wedges unnecessarily betweenus!  Besides, HAPPY is so much more yourcolor, more so than sad or heartbroken. Now MELANCHOLY could work on occasion for you… as a matter of fact, Ithink it would give your BEAUTY a certain… DIVINATION!!!  ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

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