I sleep so much better now. I think I just needed hope. I'm afraid that it'll fail... that it'll prove wrong again. I know it's a badbadbad idea to try a relationship again, but... I don't think I can not try. Does that make any sense?
When we were together, I gave her the piece of my soul I'd guarded longest. It destroyed me when she sent me away. Then she came back and made me whole again. But she left. I was given hope when she left, though. I was told she'd be back.
She called me. Not the other way around. She came back into my life. I've missed her so much. I can't help but want. Can't help but hope. She's my Star. My only. I never felt this way before her. I haven't felt this way since.
God, I hope I'm not making my biggest mistake yet. Even if I am, though... I'm going forward.
When we were together, I gave her the piece of my soul I'd guarded longest. It destroyed me when she sent me away. Then she came back and made me whole again. But she left. I was given hope when she left, though. I was told she'd be back.
She called me. Not the other way around. She came back into my life. I've missed her so much. I can't help but want. Can't help but hope. She's my Star. My only. I never felt this way before her. I haven't felt this way since.
God, I hope I'm not making my biggest mistake yet. Even if I am, though... I'm going forward.
There's just such a hope that'll it'll work hopefully that will shine through.
I'm giving this a chance... for the third time... I hope that you're able to as well.