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One "friend" finally admits she knew about it. Evidentally Meghan has a big mouth when she drinks, so I guess everyone in that social circle knew and didn't have the balls to do the right thing and tell me, especially after they saw how much she meant to me.

I've had several people tell me I need to just cut them both off and move on with my life. I don't think any of my friends, real or otherwise, really know how I deal with people or fucked up situations.

I don't ignore it, which is what cutting them both off would be, at least to me. When something fucked up happens, I don't ignore it. Yeah it hurts, but the pain sets me free. I want it to hurt, because the more it hurts, the faster it heals. I take it, make it part of me, deal with it, and never have to look back again because the hurt, the pain, everything is part of me and once I've dealt with it, it no longer hurts.

Knowing what she told everyone, how she convinced my best friend that fucking her while we were still together was a good idea, when/where they did it, what they've both said afterwards... knowing the truth. It's painful, but life is pain, and knowing these things means I will know the truth.

And the truth shall set you free.