I thought long and hard about what I wanted to name this set and I decided on a song title I hold dear to my heart. I've been depressed and have had low self esteem for as long as I can remember. I've never had any goals for the future and I have never worked on bettering myself until I joined SG. Anyone who's known me from a young age can tell you themselves that I have admired and been inspired by these girls since I was 14 year old. I would constantly tell my friends "i'll be up there with them someday", even when I didn't think it was possible.
When I was 17 I decided to do a little more research on what it means to be a Suicide Girl and how these radiant women got to where they are today and my mind was blown; my dream to be a part of this community, could finally come true after all these years! At this point I was turning 18 in a few months and naturally I promised myself I would wait until I had more tattoos and my body and face have developed due to the fact I was never comfortable in my own skin; but by the time I did turn 18 I really couldn't wait any longer.
During my first shoot for SG I was absolutely mortified. I have never been naked in front of anyone (in the light) and I have never been in front of a camera. I was nervous and incredibly self conscious during the shoot and by the end of it I thought that's just how it'll be for me; but I was wrong. During my second next shoot I remember not feeling nervous but rather excited. I didn't feel one bit awkward and if anything I felt radiant, confident, even a little sexy. Something changed and I believe with all of my heart that I have SG to thank for that.
Before I joined SG I really had nothing I wanted to live for besides my loving friends and family. I never had motivation to work towards something I wanted as opposed to something my parents wanted for me, and I never loved myself the way I do now.
I chose to name my set "Unwritten". I would always jam to this song as a kid but I really never understood the meaning of the song until I heard it again a few months back. This song is about letting yourself free, forgetting about the past and making your own future. So this set is dedicated to all of you (members, hopefuls, SG, staff) that have helped me to grow and believe in myself, and to anyone reading this who is stuck dwelling on the past.
"Today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten".
