Am i a hermit?
Recently I have shut myself off from the outside world. I suffer with some anxiety and depression issue, and I've reached a point that I literally can't stand the "outside" world. Which is a pain because I'm a musician and love to perform. It's the only time I feel comfortable in the "real" world. I've changed my phone number and only gave the new number to my family. I stopped goin out. I no longer go to party's or bars, I don't even go to the grocery store any more. If I need something outside of my house I send someone to get it for me. The only time I leave is for band practice once a week and I struggle to do that. My anxiety also cause me problems communicating with ppl. I can talk to ppl in person or over text/email/chat type stuff, but I can't talk to ppl over the phone or Skype or even through the intercom at a drive through. I had to call the bank the other day to fix a problem and literally got sick and started throughing up just from talking to them. I went to the doctor who sent me to a specialist. Diagnosed with anxiety and depression. Got meds. Went back for check up, walked in the doctors office and she wasn't there. She was out of town and had a computer set up to talk over Skype. She never even looked at the screen or at me. She started at paper works and charts. I told them I couldn't talk over Skype and my first check up was skyped! Freaked me out. I broke down and cried all the way home and haven't been back. So now I'm out of medicine and I can't convince myself to go back. I've shut myself off from the "real" world. Stopped showing up to work, stopped talking to my so called friends. Anyone else have problems like this? Anyone have any advice to help me get up and motivated in life again?
Recently I have shut myself off from the outside world. I suffer with some anxiety and depression issue, and I've reached a point that I literally can't stand the "outside" world. Which is a pain because I'm a musician and love to perform. It's the only time I feel comfortable in the "real" world. I've changed my phone number and only gave the new number to my family. I stopped goin out. I no longer go to party's or bars, I don't even go to the grocery store any more. If I need something outside of my house I send someone to get it for me. The only time I leave is for band practice once a week and I struggle to do that. My anxiety also cause me problems communicating with ppl. I can talk to ppl in person or over text/email/chat type stuff, but I can't talk to ppl over the phone or Skype or even through the intercom at a drive through. I had to call the bank the other day to fix a problem and literally got sick and started throughing up just from talking to them. I went to the doctor who sent me to a specialist. Diagnosed with anxiety and depression. Got meds. Went back for check up, walked in the doctors office and she wasn't there. She was out of town and had a computer set up to talk over Skype. She never even looked at the screen or at me. She started at paper works and charts. I told them I couldn't talk over Skype and my first check up was skyped! Freaked me out. I broke down and cried all the way home and haven't been back. So now I'm out of medicine and I can't convince myself to go back. I've shut myself off from the "real" world. Stopped showing up to work, stopped talking to my so called friends. Anyone else have problems like this? Anyone have any advice to help me get up and motivated in life again?