stinabean

i am fucking depressed as hell. i straight up failed 2 of my midterms. one of them it doesn't really matter because if i do decently well on the next 3, they'll take those scores. but i'm really worried about failing my other class. and then my gpa would tank and i wouldn't be able to graduate. this is a very real possibility. i haven't cried in a long time but i'm about to let me tell ya. it'd be sweet if i could talk to someone about this shit too but i really can't. not unless i want to be lectured, ignored or made to feel inadequate. sucky.

i'm going home this weekend and i really hope that'll help. i doubt it though. i'm just really starting to feel like about 90% of the decisions i've made to bring me to this point were horribly horribly wrong. i never ever ever say this but i really feel like starting over. i'm in over my head and i'm alone in it. i'm out of my element in so many ways and i can't help but wonder what the hell i was thinking...