stinabean

i've come full circle in just a few short years. i used to be a little goth kid who didn't smoke weed or drink. look at my picture...i look so clean...now i'm this cute little girl who drinks and smokes and i have my nipples pierced for gods sake. who would thinki, from looking at that picture that i carry pencils in my ears and have sex.

my life is centered around addiction. i'm addicted to everything i do and everyone i meet or go out with. i've heard that there's "just something about me" that somehow makes people immediately fall in love with me and not be able to let go. i've had so many fucked up relationships because people just latch on and don't give up.

i change my mind about everything almost every day. favorite color, music style, mood, religion, politics. something i say one day may not be true the next. people find this extremely frustrating but it doesn't make me fake, or any less of a person for that matter. i'm just indecisive.

my guy friends don't seem to think i have the ability to say no. i don't understand this because i would never cheat or knowingly put myself in a risky situation. however, one of my best friends told me last night that i'm essentially too flirty for my own good. i told him that wasn't my problem. i never intentionally lead people on, nor do i give them false ideas about my sexual attraction for them.

grrr people are sometimes the stupidest most obnoxious things ever. and what bothers me is that everyone says that. people suck. of course, you're always excluding yourself and a select few others, but if everyone is saying it there's an indication there.

i'm not sad or in a bad mood i just...felt like talking.

Random Stina Fact: i don't dot my i's.