stillxhere

i think sleeping in is one of the most simple and awesome things you can do. well that and making the fuck out. i realize that im a pretty simple guy when it comes to sexual stuff, and for a while i thought that was a bad thing. really, i think it's pretty cool. sure i dont hang upside down or have gang bangs, but i'd like to think that there's cool about that.

remember in middle school and part of high school when making out and foreplay was a big deal? i fucking miss that. i remember going to school and talking with my friends about feeling boobs, or fingering. it was fucking rad, there was really something new and innocent in that. making out and kissing was something intimate and personal between two people, becausae the expectation of sex was never there.

sex ruined all of that. it doesnt matter anymore how much you like the person, or the cool foreplay stuff. all that matters is fucking the other person because that is the social expectation.

im not a christian or anything, nor am i some cocky straight edge preacher. yeah im edge, but really this has nothing to do w/ that. i think alot of it is just missing how simple relationships are without sex. i've never been able to disconnect sex and feelings. never. it's not a bad thing that people can, in fact most people probably enjoy sex more so than i do (provided it's been a while). at the same time, sex i've had within serious relationships is fucking awesome, and i think it gives it more value to me.

maybe.
maybe im just a huge fucking pussy/


xxx
chris