now is the time after i call and leave a message but before she calls back. the moment where i tell myself that she has NEVER not called back and that i should relax but my stomach goes in knots. this is the time when i am insecure. when i need the phone to ring as proof. ...it always startles me when it does ring. but, it always does. why do i worry? why would a girl who spends long nights awake with me just dissapear? oh yeah, because girls make no sense. people make no sense. i think that she is the one that does. i hope...so, i'm just gonna wait for the call.
...damn...i'm fucked...i'm in love...i found her...
...damn...i'm fucked...i'm in love...i found her...
stillifegaijin:
she did call last night...my life was collapsing...exhaustion and depression and reading and drinking were bringing me to the verge of tears. the phone rang with her name and we talked for an hour. her voice soothed my madness and afterwards sleep came easily. sweet...sweet like thebasslinechanges...like tearstasteoutofkey...and holdinghands. we "enjoy" each other.
brokenbroken:
*sigh*
