Almost sent an e-mail to the ex today. Then I realized something.
She doesn't deserve that. She doesn't deserve to know that there's still a place in my mind that she occupies, doesn't deserve a goddamned thing from me. Fuck her....fuck it all.
Fuck this thing they call love. It's fickle and self serving at best, torturous and self destructive more often than not. I'm done. From now on, I am a machine. I will relearn how to be dead inside, how to feel nothing. I am fucking done.
She doesn't deserve that. She doesn't deserve to know that there's still a place in my mind that she occupies, doesn't deserve a goddamned thing from me. Fuck her....fuck it all.
Fuck this thing they call love. It's fickle and self serving at best, torturous and self destructive more often than not. I'm done. From now on, I am a machine. I will relearn how to be dead inside, how to feel nothing. I am fucking done.
Ex's can suck...I had to talk to mine tonight