I'm sorry......but i have no body to talk to and my boyfriend....is so great there is no support from him........so I am going to write in my journal and i'm sorry if i bore you 
. So my aunt last year was diagnosed with cancer i don't remember the name of it and everything was fine and soon enough the doctors said it was all gone.........two weeks after that great news she wokes up because she couldn't move.........and because she had cancer they had to send her back to sloan keterign........They ran some test and found out they fucked up the whole time they treated her for that one cancer it was leukemia and the reason she couldn't move was because it spread to her back............this was two months ago.........NOW today my mother call me and work ( I'm a waitress) and I get the wonderful news the the cancer has spread again....its in her skull now.......and her 40% chance of living went down again........and all I can do is cry..........because she is 30 yrs old.......with two daugther that are 9 and 4 next week..............and she did nothing to deserve this..........and the hardest thing for me is I never get why the doctors never saw what was reallt there........they are killing the best thing in my life.......my best friend......who is only 9 years older than I am 
.......She suffers and she goes through this pain and hopes and prays every night in hopes that she could see her daugthers a little while longer and that is keeping her from giving up but latelt I've seen her so tired and so unhappy it killls me inside and when i close my eyes all i see is her face andn I pray every night that it will go away but then reality hits and it won't go away and there is a depressing day all over again.............................
. So my aunt last year was diagnosed with cancer i don't remember the name of it and everything was fine and soon enough the doctors said it was all gone.........two weeks after that great news she wokes up because she couldn't move.........and because she had cancer they had to send her back to sloan keterign........They ran some test and found out they fucked up the whole time they treated her for that one cancer it was leukemia and the reason she couldn't move was because it spread to her back............this was two months ago.........NOW today my mother call me and work ( I'm a waitress) and I get the wonderful news the the cancer has spread again....its in her skull now.......and her 40% chance of living went down again........and all I can do is cry..........because she is 30 yrs old.......with two daugther that are 9 and 4 next week..............and she did nothing to deserve this..........and the hardest thing for me is I never get why the doctors never saw what was reallt there........they are killing the best thing in my life.......my best friend......who is only 9 years older than I am .......She suffers and she goes through this pain and hopes and prays every night in hopes that she could see her daugthers a little while longer and that is keeping her from giving up but latelt I've seen her so tired and so unhappy it killls me inside and when i close my eyes all i see is her face andn I pray every night that it will go away but then reality hits and it won't go away and there is a depressing day all over again.............................VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
She also lost her best friend to cancer.
What pisses me off about your entry though, is that those stupid shithead millionaire doctors fucked up her diagnoses. At SLOAN KETTERING??? I want to just storm into their offices and tell them I just chemo-therapized their parents whose cold i mis-diagnosed as giving birth to fucking ass-holes.
(sorry if that doesn't make any sense. i'm mad. grr.)
No more faith. None.
There's a good book you might read though, called "my grandfather's wisdom." The author Dr. Naomi Remen who councelled people with cancer and their family members and she tells their stories. It's actually pretty depressing, but the stories sort of teach you something.
All the best to you~