Wow, where to begin. Well I guess why I haven't updated in a bit would be a good place. Truth be told, I don't really have a definite answer. There have been nights where I was like, yeah, I'm going to update, sat there and stared at the blank whiteness and just didn't do it. There were also many a nights of saying "I'll do it tomorrow." So I guess what started out as a good reason, be it tiredness, too little time, etc, just turned out to be like "If I post now it would be weird." You know, like when you know you need to email or call someone who you haven't talked to in a bit, and the more you put it off, the more awkward it feels. ::shrugs::
Also too, for admitinly I've been a bit, I don't know, down, feeling stagnant, just not feeling all that right. So often I'd be overly pessimistic and just not want to post. Feeling like it really doesn't matter if I write anything or not. Like other things in my life, like does it matter if I have AIM on, because there are only like three people that IM anymore on a regular basis. Or does it matter if I have a cell phone, the only person that really calls me a lot is my g/f, and I'm sure we could get a hold of each other with out it. I've also been having that lonely in a room full of people feeling. Even with my friends anymore, often wondering if they even care if I'm there. I sense a change coming though, somewhere somehow, that's part of the reason I am writing.
Also, I really must admit that the upcoming presidential election has really gotten me frustrated and wondering what the point is. I see all these polls saying that Bush is winning, and people truely trust this man and his administration with leading us into whatever trouble they can over the next four years, it's really disheartening. And I admit, maybe in another election I wouldn't vote for Kerry (which I plan to), but I don't see how the way we're heading is right at all. Though I hate to talk politics, because I have the cynicism that runs rapant, that our system needs some major tweeking right now, that my vote really doesn't count, that politicians aren't really for the common man. One of my better friends is a diehard Republican to the point, at least in my opinion, that he doesn't question what they say, and thinks Bush is a wonderful president. I've been having such a problem with this. He's so angrily behind him, spewing so many things about "Liberals" and all these things on his website. I often find myself just wanting to find something to prove him wrong. So I get all worked up trying to. I honestly just can't wait until it's all over, then we see if I move to another country or not, hehe.
Work too has had it's sucky times. I've been oversleeping for some reason, so I got in some trouble for being late a couple times. And also I pretty much get bombarded with work anymore. It's like, hey here's a new special project, get TJ on it again and again. I really need a vacation, or maybe start looking elsewhere. Who knows.
But enough of the downers. Sorry to go off on them so much. It actually felt really good to type them out. Thank you for whoever actually read this and still is for that matter, you rock beyond belief. Some highlights of the past month or so.
I went to Ozzfest 8/26 in Camden. I "worked" with the local rock station I've been apart of for the past few years. I managed to take photos with my own camera this year, it was awesome. Through some pretty tricky manuevering, I got back behind the second stage, and was able to take the shots with the rest of the photogs, so I got some really good shots. Judge for yourself Starting with the guy with the guitar on are all mine. So at the same time I got to see some great bands, and found some new likings for some. The band that blew me away was Dimmu Borgir, now I'm not the hugest black metal fan, but they are killer live. And honestly, Judas Priest, holy f'n wow, they can still play with the best, hell they might be the best. My only regret was leaving early, but at the same time I don't. See Ozzy was sick, and he had to miss the show, so instead, they got Rob friggin Halford to fill in for him with Sabbath. Now I wasn't told this until I was leaving, and they weren't announcing this until RIGHT before they went on, so all I knew was that the station people were leaving, and it was recommended I do the same. Mostly because there's really no telling how thousands of drunk people will react to the situation. We already had a bit of a situation when Axel Rose had his umpteenth breakdown and didn't show in Philly. Now what I understand nothing major happened, but a friend said that there were a whole lot of people walking out and booing. How retarded can you be! Anyway, the bright point being I got out of there with barely any traffic, that worked for me. Overall, two sets of horns up.
Hmmm, I'm babbling far too much here. I think I'm going to stop this here update and continue with it next time. And no worries, the downers are out of the way and I'm feeling better in general. Next time I'll be writing about the great and horrible movies I have seen, some new music, and my experience with the cutest children ever, my cousin's kids!!!
And lastly, Smuffy I thank you.
Also too, for admitinly I've been a bit, I don't know, down, feeling stagnant, just not feeling all that right. So often I'd be overly pessimistic and just not want to post. Feeling like it really doesn't matter if I write anything or not. Like other things in my life, like does it matter if I have AIM on, because there are only like three people that IM anymore on a regular basis. Or does it matter if I have a cell phone, the only person that really calls me a lot is my g/f, and I'm sure we could get a hold of each other with out it. I've also been having that lonely in a room full of people feeling. Even with my friends anymore, often wondering if they even care if I'm there. I sense a change coming though, somewhere somehow, that's part of the reason I am writing.
Also, I really must admit that the upcoming presidential election has really gotten me frustrated and wondering what the point is. I see all these polls saying that Bush is winning, and people truely trust this man and his administration with leading us into whatever trouble they can over the next four years, it's really disheartening. And I admit, maybe in another election I wouldn't vote for Kerry (which I plan to), but I don't see how the way we're heading is right at all. Though I hate to talk politics, because I have the cynicism that runs rapant, that our system needs some major tweeking right now, that my vote really doesn't count, that politicians aren't really for the common man. One of my better friends is a diehard Republican to the point, at least in my opinion, that he doesn't question what they say, and thinks Bush is a wonderful president. I've been having such a problem with this. He's so angrily behind him, spewing so many things about "Liberals" and all these things on his website. I often find myself just wanting to find something to prove him wrong. So I get all worked up trying to. I honestly just can't wait until it's all over, then we see if I move to another country or not, hehe.
Work too has had it's sucky times. I've been oversleeping for some reason, so I got in some trouble for being late a couple times. And also I pretty much get bombarded with work anymore. It's like, hey here's a new special project, get TJ on it again and again. I really need a vacation, or maybe start looking elsewhere. Who knows.
But enough of the downers. Sorry to go off on them so much. It actually felt really good to type them out. Thank you for whoever actually read this and still is for that matter, you rock beyond belief. Some highlights of the past month or so.
I went to Ozzfest 8/26 in Camden. I "worked" with the local rock station I've been apart of for the past few years. I managed to take photos with my own camera this year, it was awesome. Through some pretty tricky manuevering, I got back behind the second stage, and was able to take the shots with the rest of the photogs, so I got some really good shots. Judge for yourself Starting with the guy with the guitar on are all mine. So at the same time I got to see some great bands, and found some new likings for some. The band that blew me away was Dimmu Borgir, now I'm not the hugest black metal fan, but they are killer live. And honestly, Judas Priest, holy f'n wow, they can still play with the best, hell they might be the best. My only regret was leaving early, but at the same time I don't. See Ozzy was sick, and he had to miss the show, so instead, they got Rob friggin Halford to fill in for him with Sabbath. Now I wasn't told this until I was leaving, and they weren't announcing this until RIGHT before they went on, so all I knew was that the station people were leaving, and it was recommended I do the same. Mostly because there's really no telling how thousands of drunk people will react to the situation. We already had a bit of a situation when Axel Rose had his umpteenth breakdown and didn't show in Philly. Now what I understand nothing major happened, but a friend said that there were a whole lot of people walking out and booing. How retarded can you be! Anyway, the bright point being I got out of there with barely any traffic, that worked for me. Overall, two sets of horns up.
Hmmm, I'm babbling far too much here. I think I'm going to stop this here update and continue with it next time. And no worries, the downers are out of the way and I'm feeling better in general. Next time I'll be writing about the great and horrible movies I have seen, some new music, and my experience with the cutest children ever, my cousin's kids!!!
And lastly, Smuffy I thank you.