stellinah

never again

i'm never enough for him, i'll never be enough for anyone
panic attacks are here
i can't even breathe.
i'll keep on scarring my flesh to remember that i've done something wrong, that i must be punished for something i've done.
so i'll remember that nothing can work fine with me.
shed my skin again this will be my best revenge... no i don't have the strenght to go on now.
maybe tomorrow
not now.
i don't want to sleep
i don't want to eat

they tell me it's time to give it up and build something
i'll puke instead.
i'm dizzy and dazed. shivering like a madman