my dearest jeffrey
its now eight years and i cry now like the first time my mom told me on the phone that you were gone. last year was progress. i celebreated the 4th of july. i took a moment out to watch the fireworks alone and think of you. but its now the night before and i sit here gasping for air thinking of you. it was the moment that i lost you that i realized there was no god. i was going to go out tomorrow and celebreate but how can i? how can i sit there and enjoy the day reliving hour to hour that i lost you? how can i celebreate this day thinking of you in the hospital? ill never forgive myself for not being able to tell you that i love you. sao ill just sit at home tomorrow night and remeber the 18 years we had. i love you. i hope you know that
its now eight years and i cry now like the first time my mom told me on the phone that you were gone. last year was progress. i celebreated the 4th of july. i took a moment out to watch the fireworks alone and think of you. but its now the night before and i sit here gasping for air thinking of you. it was the moment that i lost you that i realized there was no god. i was going to go out tomorrow and celebreate but how can i? how can i sit there and enjoy the day reliving hour to hour that i lost you? how can i celebreate this day thinking of you in the hospital? ill never forgive myself for not being able to tell you that i love you. sao ill just sit at home tomorrow night and remeber the 18 years we had. i love you. i hope you know that
mqx:
You're welcome to come over tomorrow and eat hamburgers and pork ribs if you think it will help.