This is sensation. This is feeling. They war inside with what I have set in place to protect myself from pain. Gates, diversionary tracts, should be directing the flow into the centre where it can cool. I can feel them trying to work but it is far too much. They will not hold against the coming storm.
This is how it is supposed to feel. The loss of joy, the flood of memory.
I don't want to feel
This is how it is supposed to feel. The loss of joy, the flood of memory.
I don't want to feel
And feeling - for better or for worse - is what makes us who we are.