starsandsmokes

... we forgot to pay, well actually just didn't pay, our cable bill, so i'm having to use a stupid fucking aol free trial if i want to get online until we pay the bill and get everything hooked back up... shitty. i've been away from my wonderful, beautiful wife for 5 days now & it feels like longer than the 2 weeks i was there, and there is this anxiousness that grows with every day until I get back to vancouver, and along with the anxiety there is also a hole in my soul, a crippling pain that grows with every day of being away from her, it started the second she was just out of sight as i was walking through the duty free shop at the airport. the flights home were long, but i got a free glass of wine on my first flight, then hit the bar at the seattle airport, and on the second flight the guy seated next to me and i proceeded to get hammered while watching the in flight movie that just happened to be one of my favorites (lost in translation). soon after the movie was over i passed out from way too much wine & way too little sleep, i guess that happens when you are taking the long way home on 3 flights over the course of 12 hours. my first night back a couple friends had planned a surprise party for me at my place, which was really cool and meant a lot to me, they all wanted to know all about the wedding, vancouver, how her family was and if they liked me, and how my family liked her (they absolutely loved her), they made sure to supply me with some nice wine, and lots of great friendship, it's funny how when you don't think that you have that many friends they tend to all surprise you. going back to work sucked, i'm tired of my job, and it has been really boring lately, which just gives me more time to think about being so far away. yeah, so i'm really tired of typing, so until next time, i have been me, and probably will be tomorrow as well...

... goddamn, i say goddamn i love this girl...