starrydynamo

Hmmm I am considering paring down my friends list so I only have 10 again. I miss having people's pictures and not everyone I have as friends comments. It's silly. I'm big on communication and if someone isn't going to talk to me then they should just fuck off in the first place. I don't befriend people to look popular.

I am getting sick of everything. I desperately need a change of scenery here soon. I've been restless recently, something needs to happen. Something needs to change. I am about to explode because of this dull fucking routine I've gotten myself trapped in. I'm over worked and I'm not enjoying life anymore. I need to get the fuck out.

I got violently ill last night because my dad made pasta sauce that had anchovies in it and just **HAPPENED** to forget to tell me about it until AFTER I had eaten it and started puking violently for an hour. I do not digest meat well. He did it on purpose too, he knows I don't eat meat. I haven't eaten meat since 5th grade, this is nothing new. My father is such a jackass.

I am sick of selfish people who try to control others and change them in ways that they do not want to change. I am sick of pretending to be something I'm not just to please others. I am acting like myself for the first time in years and people are accepting me for it. I was lead to believe long ago that people would hate the "real me" and I'm realizing that it's not fucking true. If you really don't like who I am, then fuck off. I don't want to put up with your shit anyway. It's not your place to tell a person what they should and should not do. Doing that just makes you a fuck head.

I am fed up with my "friends." They do not appreciate ANYTHING I do for them. They take advantage of me and they take me for grantite. I am sick of it. I do everything for them and I don't get shit in return. They only call me when they want something because I'm the only one that will do it for them. Well guess what ass holes, I'M NOT GOING TO DO IT ANYMORE. It's time to learn to fend for your fucking selves. I'm putting my foot down and if you don't like it I don't fucking care. I don't need you feeding off of me anyway. Grow the fuck up.

I have a D in English. Why? Because my professor is a complete douche. I'm the best fucking student in that class and I have a fucking D. We got in a disagreement in class because she put up the topic of Socialism as a subject of debate. I didn't agree with her and said so. I offered a VERY valid argument and made many very reasonable points. She just got mad and yelled at me. WHAT THE FUCK this is college, don't get so fucking heated over a stupid debate! *screams* ANYWAY...

that's all.


Edit: If you're still my friend, feel special.