starrydynamo

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the canopy above my head is all i see another day another night i'm lying here falling asleep i sure hope that they do not think i'm lazy and i hope that they don't think that i'm a slob i hope that i don't make myself way too much at home i hope you care when i'm gone watch another movie play another song read another passage in the book spend another hour of just another day i hope i don't spend way too much time falling asleep i sure hope that you always know i'll miss you and i hope that when you sleep you're looking up cause when i rest i think of all those tired times and i can't sleep when you're gone those closed eyes remind me of what we have please don't open them yet.

How can I convince you it's me I don't like
And not be so indifferent to the look in your eyes
When I've always been distant
And I've always told lies for love
I'm bound by these choices so hard to make
I'm bound by the feeling so easy to fake
None of this is real enough to take me from you
Oh I've got reservations
About so many things
But not about you
I know this isn't what you were wanting me to say
How can I get closer and be further away
From the truth that proves it's beautiful to lie
I've got reservations
About so many things
But not about you

I've felt kind of distant from someone the past 2 days and I just hope everything's alright. I am such a crappy people person.

Soooooooo what about today, I had a VERY interesting day.
To begin with I met rockpaperscisors this afternoon for coffee in Berkeley, which was wonderful indeed He was pretty much exactly what i expected but apparently he half expected ME to be a 50 year old plumber, which, quite obviously, I wasn't. So we walked and talked and saw the CUTEST LITTLE BUNNY BABBITS that I just wanted to squeeze and cuddle because they were so damn cute and some absoloutly gorgeous birds in this little pet shop on College.

So anyway we saw fluffy bunny babbits and talked about everything that isn't important and overall I just had a really nice time

After we went our separate ways I get back on the bus to go home and I get a text message from my ex asking if it was me he had just seen. I told him yeah and for some reason he was being nice so I continued the chit chat for a bit. Meanwhile I was trying to get a hold of my best friend who wasn't picking up her phone so I obliged my ex with a phone call to ask where she was because I was going to be back in town in about 20 minutes. He said that he and our other friends had been waiting for her to call and basically it was just this big roundabout where-the-hell-is-she mixup. I finally got a hold of her and found out she was doing her taxes (so random) and had to go to the post office. By this time I was already back in town and had to get off the bus and I just HAPPENED (seriously, it really was a coincidence) to be at the bus stop in front of my ex's house. So I got off the bus and went up to his apartment and he answered the door HELL OF CONFUSED but he let me in and I hung out with him and our other friend until my best friend called me back and told me she was ready to go.
I realize that by now I'm sure no one is reading this, but if you are I'm sorry for being so boring.
So she came and picked me up and we just started driving and we exchanged appologies about the big blow up and just caught up on old news and while we were talking made the unannounced and unanimous decision to go to San Francisco so the next thing we know we end up at the wharf and are eating bread bowls in the freezing cold at 9.00 at night for absoloutly no reason. But it was fun. Then I came home and now here I am sitting on the computer as usual.
So that was my day and that is way more than I have done in a long time and I think that it was exactly what I needed to get me out of this somewhat shitty mood I've been n. I really needed to just go out and do something entirely different. Anyway blah blah blah I'm rambling and I'm exhausted so I'm going to bed.
xoxo