http://youtu.be/U6ScJim2D3U Well, the goal here was to get this youtube video of The Cure's Want to work, but I have the link here and have no idea if it will!! I have tried to embed it and not really working... So.. it may or may not be here LOL... The song came up in my mind today because I have been thinking of all the things I want and want to accomplish and get/ have. I guess it is a good thing as my fiance says.. like it keeps you going and wanting more and desiring the things you don't have that you yearn for.. a normal human condition. I guess if i didn't have that drive I would be far too bored and unmotivated. I will list a big desire first because of where I am posting this here on this site! I want so badly to become a Suicide Girl !! I think of it every day ( which sounds crazy lol ) but it is like this goal because I have wanted it for so long. I feel like it is my time soon ( hopefully or is that the desire talking lol ) . It is easy to feel like you aren't good enough or pretty enough or don't have what it takes and all that stuff, but I am sure lots of girls feel that way. I feel like I have changed a lot in the last year in my appearance, health, confidence, etc. and I feel excited to have my newest set ready to show you guys and do more sets that better reflect myself now. I know all of the sets I have done so far have kind of flunked out in SG, but being where I am now, I can see why ( other than Starlight because I really love that, but it was before the site changed and I wasn't even as confident or where I want to be weight/ appearance wise then) I feel very passionate about reaching this goal, so I really hope this happens for me. I really wanted to share that mostly. All of my other wants are going on too lol.. I want my wedding and honeymoon in New York ( never been there before ) to be here in October, I want to sell my car finally and get my Toyota Corolla i have wanted for so many years ( silly, but yes that is my "dream car" lol .. oh reliability), I want to buy a house instead of living in an apartment for many reasons but including having a veggie garden with a place for my rabbit to run and to own a couple chickens too, I want to lose the extra 8 pounds I have still on me, I want my niece to be here already, I want my hair clientelle to be built so big that I am crazy Saturday busy every day, and sooo many more things of course, but these are the ones currently on my mind. If you have read this whole blog, I am impressed. I really needed to "blog it out" today.. Desire keeps ya going I swear!! Anyways love and goodnight <3 Starphire
