Here's to being more socially active in life. After a long absence from both SG and Instagram, I am here by vowing to stop hiding under a rock. I tested the water with my ability to keep updated with Instagram a couple of weeks ago, and so far I have been successful. I'd like to to the same here - I've met so many beautiful and caring and FUN people through SG and I'd like to keep them around and meet even more wonderful ladies!
I had a rough go at the end of the summer and most of fall, but that stuff is all tiring and not the kind of thing anyone wants to listen to, and most importantly, IT IS IN THE PAST. It took me years to learn, but the past is never going to change, and if I continue to dwell on it than my past will slowly ruin my future. I suffer from a pretty heavy panic disorder which kept me quite incapable of fending for myself for far too long - the past year and half of my life as been a fantastic journey of crawling out of my anxiety and shedding the negativity that kept me down. I AM POWERFUL. I know that my disorder is still there, and some days are harder than others - but I have come such a long way. I want to LIVE. I want to CONTROL my own reactions and feelings. I spent years heavily medicated and failing at finding the right combination of drugs to make me a functional human being... I felt hopeless. But today I am proud to say that I have come this far WITHOUT the use of medications. I AM A FREE WOMAN.
Something else you should know about me: I absolutely DETEST the winter. I live in Maine, which is pretty far up in the cold parts of the US and my body and I do not like freezing to death. So while the rest of the locals go skiing and snowboarding, I wrap myself in as much clothing as I can possibly find and keep my head down till spring (which doesnt come nearly as fast as I would like)... But that also means that for me, December is a time for reflection. I've grown a lot. I've done a lot. I've made good friends and I've lost the terrible ones. I know what is most important in my life. 2013 has been a good year.
I'd like to get to know some new faces here on SG... I want to be more active in this fabulous community. The new website is just phenomenal and I want to take full advantage of it!