starlastarlove

Hello sg loves -

How are you guys?? i hope everyone is alright <3
Xmas is almost here... so crazy how fast it comes around when it seems so far away earlier in the year..... Im also going to be turning 33 on the 28th. Im not excited about that lol. I miss my 20's so much :|

So for awhile now i've had lower back pain left side - spasms which have turned into sciatica and runs down my left leg, it kills sometimes... and my foot feels like its numb other times.... its really awful. I have been on steroids for it but that did pretty much nothing. Looks like more stretching and keeping on my feet is going to be all i can do for it right now. Seeing a chiropractor would be good but i'll need a prior authorization from my doctor before i can get my insurance to cover it...so after xmas if it's still as bad i'll go that route. It just sucks so much..sleeping is so painful.
-sigh-
Just wanna be myself again! its been a tough year, esp the past few months .....

I did get to see the smashing pumpkins on dec 1st in my state. its been 11 years since i was able to see them and it meant the world to me.... i felt so happy like i was 14 all over again


Got most everything set for xmas just gotta make a few sweets this week.

I'm getting the 'i need more ink' itch which i always do this time of year but $ is so tight its hard.we'll see what my bday brings

Feel like im not myself lately due to playing that game, not spending much time with my bf and that sorta thing so im trying to slowly disconnect from that and get back to my happy spot so i can draw and enjoy things.

My doc increaed my antidepressant (effexor)a little bit which i am not very happy about. Honestly i dont want to take this shit anymore and maybe after xmas i might try to get away from it even though it sucks to do so.

Ok, time for some random photos.









damn i need to take more photos.....see everything is just offffffffff.......

- starla